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2010-05-20T00:57:00.002+08:00

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2010-02-05T23:36:00.001+08:00

如果我们俩
从来不曾相恋
泪水不会占据我的眼
如果你的心
还有一点牵挂
不会将我孤独的留下
我不愿回顾
因为在记忆深处
思念常刺痛我的心灵
人生旅程
充满艰辛和坎坷
我需要你的双手牵引
思念常刺痛我心灵

2010-01-30T22:51:00.002+08:00

Met Erict today for dinner at north point, the Chinese restaurant at second floor just beside the Matthantan Fish Market. The food there are not bad. lol After that shop shop around.

Tomorrow plan:
- Pack my wore drop
- Study
- Cook (maybe)

Ever since i start schooling, i feel like i became more lazy. Tired all the time. Haiz... I cannot procrastinate anymore le!!! Need to push myself study harder le. And test next week again. Why time go so fast one? zZZ

Alright for now i hope his qi will disappear ba and do well for studies...

2010-01-22T20:31:00.003+08:00

It had been so long since i last update my blog. lol alright, i'm back for a new post! Well i just started school at PSB academy, taking business admin course. School had started 2 weeks ago to 3 weeks le. Time is really passing really fast... Though i'm not quite use to schooling life, but i do enjoy very much. Know lots of new friends and i also love hanging out with them though most of the time i am the only girl there. But ok la not so bad, gonna get use to it le. They are a bunch of fun and friendly people. Surprisingly one of my classmate Tony, i actually knew him quite long before school start through msn le. Its kind of surprise that we are actually studying in a same school and same class. yea. Well he is a nice and mature guy. haha And he said that when he first saw me in school i looks like ah lian and i look fierce. Sad sia, first time got people comment me in this way. zzz ok la, at least i still enjoy hanging out with him^^ He is a very English person, and i can say that he is a quite mature and caring guy. I learned quite a lot from him too...Well he is nice guy to hang out with. lol

2 of my classmates, Agnes, Catherine and i are known as SHE in class, and Tony is Toro. LOL And the other few guys Daren (big people), Brandon (branded), Roy (roxy), Yu Yang (jade sun) and Alex are known as 5566 as they always sit together in class as well. LOL what a happening and fun class i have. And many of my own friends are studying in PSB as well. I'm really surprise and glad to see them there. This shows that singapore is really small. Haha

Just finish 2 tests today and yesterday. I chiong study like crazy girl in past 2 weeks sia. Very long never have a stress feeling for studies le ever since i graduated from secondary school. lol I'm actually struggling with a bit of problems recently, trying to learn to be more happy go lucky person just like Daren. And its so tough to be 'happy go lucky". zzzz

Anyway i think i gonna stop here for today ba. Very lazy to type le. Update again soon ba.

Good Night!

Restless, Hopeless, Emo

2009-10-16T15:24:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was really a emo day la. Went to CK-Tangs do my stuff then headed down to woodlands meet Alicia and Vernisa. After that accompany Alicia go eat lunch at Long John at north point, and Vernisa will go down to Clark Quay for dental. Ahh...Really very pek chek yesterday la. Suddenly i'm not angry, not sad, but really feel very hopeless liao lor. Haiz... After we finished our food, En Qing Jie Fu came and join us, then went to Breeks Cafe for dessert. Jie Fu treat's. So nice of him. Thank you^^ Then sis and i will walk walk around lor, Jie Fu went home eat dinner then come down join us again. lol Really very xian mu sis la... Everytime like that one...>.< _=" thanks">~!@#$%^&* I guess that is a good chance for him to ask whatever he want la...Wah lao, again, they become more and more mushy lor, and QQWW infront of me as if i'm not there like that, i'm like so bright there. =_= And heart was screaming to Vernisa for help!!! Well, never mind, use to it can liao... And so, after last night, my dear sis Alicia really attached liao, that means she is gonna pao qi Vernisa and me again. LOL

Really play untill i have nothing better to ask la. So my last one is i dare someone to do something stupid and i guess its quite tough. lol Don't know why after drinking, i can say out many nonsense and really dare to say it out one lor. Damn it! Roar!!! Ok la, not so bad as last time. My mouth its super accurate lor. Everytime whatever things comes out from Alicia and my mouth sure will happen one day one lor.... Argh!!! We must go eat "zai" for one month for cleansing liao.

Nothing better to do today, last minute don't need to go for meeting, and feel kinda restless. Later maybe will accompany mummy to go TPY then night maybe will join Vibe and others for pubbing again. zzz Gonna fall in love with night life liao. But really feel restless today la, don't know why also. Mind is really blank. Sis go enjoy and meet jie fu de parent liao, so sure no time for us liao >.<"

Got to go le. Byee!

2009-10-14T23:43:00.002+08:00

Met Lin Jie ah di today for steamboat buffet dinner at bugis beach hotel there. Eat till we super full sia. I ate lots of scallops. Yum yum yummy!!! LOL Then Lin Jie ate lots of mutton's and beefs. Really full till we cannot walk properly sia. After that went to Bugis Junction to shop shop. Ah di bought one Polo Spirit wallet and i bought a pink checker dress from FOX. After that we buy ice-cream eat, then walked from bugis to esplanade take bus 171 home. lol It was a long ride. But when we reach Seleta there, saw those bus uncle came up and wanna check card. Because lin jie was using his younger brother student ez-link, scare got fine, then we alight in the middle of high way. =.= That bus stop is really iry lor, some more no bus and hard to get cab. Waited for about 15mins then saw one cab pass by. Lin's was like so excited waving at the taxi like crazy man like that. LMAO And finally that taxi uncle saw us. Yeah! Then headed home. LOL Ok la, i lazy to post liao. Update soon. Byee!

Happy Hour!

2009-10-13T17:02:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was an awesome day! Met Vibe and we had a great outing. It was really long since i last seen her. Went for shopping at ION and Bugis, dinner and pubbing with some of her friends. It was fun. I had a great night. Learned how to play guessing dices, sticking 21-dian and some other games. Also learned how to speak some Vietnam languages and Thai language. LOL Both of us bought a pair of shoes each and changed it on the spot. haha funny la both of us. haha She taught me some of her language and i taught her some of my language. Wanted to ask Glanice along but she really MIA liao. zzz We drank like 3 bottles of Martell sia. lol Ok la, there are five of us. Not so bad cos beside Vibe and i, the rest are all guys, they have drink well... haha

Vibe and me ^^

we are in the pub!

Martell mix with green tea is nice!

Drank quite a lot last night, good thing is i can fall asleep easier. lol reach home around 4am. Slept around 5am. And i'm not going out today le. Very tired. lol haha Aright i go do my stuff le. Byee!

2009-10-11T23:37:00.003+08:00

Met Alicia at her house downstair then headed to yishun mrt station to meet E.Q. After that went to Norman house to take back my discs. I guess if its not Alicia, i think this mission will fail again. As when the time we reach his house he smsed me asking me to come another day. Cause the discs is at his uncle house. =_= We were like wanna puke blood liao. He is trying to be funny lor. Happy happy put half portion of my discs at Lay Peng house, then another portion put at his uncle house. Then thanks to Alicia la, fierce enough to talk to him. Cool man!!! He very power la, took three months to return me stuff. Some more must split to two days and two places. sigh *shake head X2*. After that walked over to Yishun GV to buy movie tickets, then each lunch at the Japanese Food Court. Then buy tibits from cold storage, just nice by the time we reach the cinema, commercia just started not long ago only. The movie was awesome and interesting la. lol After movie, walked to Alicia house hang out. Yukiki fur fly all around. =_=''' Then Alicia kept teasing me and shooting me by say "Vernisa!!!". Argh!!! this is a secret so cannot tell you guys what izzit mean, but its something not very nice to me, but good for some people there who keep laughing... >.<"" After that cab home with E.Q. Now blogging time! lol

Well finally he gave me a reply through msn... And seriously i really don't know whether i want to believe him or not, as i feel so...haiz i also don't know how to express my feeling out. I want to believe him, but i really have doubt in it. Well, who right who wrong. Let's forget it then. I forgive. And i have to pray for his grandma who is in ICU now. Sigh* Recently see lots of sheng lao bing si stuff. Life seems to be so fragile and weak. Its so precious then anything else. That shows that we should really treasure it and spend it in a correct, positive way, and most importantly we must be happy. No point keeping those hatred and anger with us. Really no point. I just realise that when a person is dead, all the hatred, angers, everything will just disappear and vanish...

Life is like so damn complicated!

2009-10-10T23:20:00.002+08:00

Haiz... Life SUX, seriously i find my life really cannot make it. Happy moment is very little and short. Stress is everywhere. Sometimes i really wonder why am i working so hard, why am i taking words and stuff, everything so seriously? Every time i tell myself to heck care stuff, but i still care so much. I just hate myself for being so silly every time. No matter at home, at outside, at everywhere, every issue, every cases, i take it so serious. Sometimes i think soft hearted may not be good... Now i am loss, totally loss. I don't know what i want. My mind totally blank now. I realise my patience is getting weaker then last time. I miss the old me. Though last time de me is really naive, but at least i am happier then now. Why must let me know so many things, so many experiences? I am tired. Why am i always the middle person? Why always me? why why why? Why recently things will not go on smoothly? Things doesn't go on well recently, no matter in work, in career, in family, in relationship, everything's in a big mess.... Why my thinking is so negative now a days? Everything is not like before. Why those adults is still thinks and handle things like so childish? Why i can understand but they don't???

Nobody will understand how i'm feeling right now. I really gonna break down soon. My life may have more freedom now, but i really miss those olden days. Haiz... why things will become like that? No peace, no harmony... Its really sickening....

Today went to meet my buddy Alicia and Venisa for lunch. We are like damn funny la. Because i over slept today, Alicia waited for me till really hungry. So she went to eat first at Long John Silver. Then when i reach North Point, accompany Venisa to eat mashed potato at KFC, as she can't eat anything else. Then finally my turn to eat. Went to subway, as i don't feel like eating any fried food. LOL Accompany Venisa untill 4pm as she need to go work. As we were killing time, we were like shooting each other especially to Alicia. LOL hahahaha Then headed to Alicia place to rot. She were busying talking on phone, sms-ing and sleep cos she not feeling very well la.then me and Yukiki (Alicia dog) rotting with laptop. lol Around 7pm, Daryl called me down for dinner and hang out, so ok lor, since i nothing to do anyway also want Alicia to rest la. So went down to meet Daryl lor. Ate at Buddy Haoggies again. zzz Then headed down to Yishun Safra to enjoy aircon and chit chat then play swing. While swinging, we got so called sing along session. lol Sang nan ren nu ren, zhu wo sheng ri kuai le, nobody, and many many more. Both of us like crazy people like la. Then shouted out loud. Course both of us not in a very good mood today la. lol After that we cab home sweet home...

Really very very pissed off now. I gonna give up hopes le... seriously gonna shut down soon. Haiz.....

HaPpY HoUr!!!

2009-10-10T02:07:00.002+08:00

Lol met Alicia at AMK hub then meet her friend En Qing for K-Box today. We got so called sneaked into the k-box by using student package. As En Qing and I are no longer student. LOL But because with his kiddish face and my I/C with student age so we are allow to go in lo. Again we made lots of laughters and jokes at K la. Why? Because got Alicia and me lor. Both motivate each other to "nao siao hua" la. LOL Then we took some random pictures:

I think this will be our best shot for today lol

zzz me with half face =.=

Me with white white face >.<

Sis and me

Haha alicia singing with new cutie style LOL

LOL I did enjoyed myself with sis and this new friend today. And its really funny today la. Laugh and laugh non-stop. As some songs make the atmosphere so weird then sing half way we laugh again. And we sang some oldies songs also. I say oldies it means its really oldies ok? Then we start laughing again. We end our happy-K at 7 pm. Then headed to Buddy Hoaggies for our dinner. Chat quite a lot. Then me and sis like start to girl's talk naturally, really almost forgotten that En Qing is actually with us. Ahhh pai seh ar friend... we were too agitated to talk about it. haha Then walked to Alicia house chit chat after that En Qing went home. Around 11.45pm Alicia walked me down to bus stop, chat abit then bus home sweet home. Now blogging. Its a enjoyable day today, and also a good time for me to distress ba. lol

Trying to forget those unhappy stuff, but it really need takes some times for me to get over it. Just cannot really sleep in the late night, though i'm very tired. Sigh*

Alright i will stop here for now.

2009-10-07T03:12:00.003+08:00

That four days were just a sweet dream to me. Though its short, but it will forever saved in my deep heart disk. I have no regret, no hatred, no anger... Just a little of disappointment. At least i had done something which is right. Let go earlier before it go worse. I thank god for this sweet dream.

Met Alicia yesterday for dinner after i am done with my stuff, same old place at Buddy Haoggies. Then go hang out at her place. Then went down to meet our Ah Di Lin Jie for supper. Actually is only Lin Jie eat, we watched him eat. Then we made a lot of laughter at the 848 coffee shop. lol After that as its already very late, so we sent Alicia home then Lin Jie and i will cab home together.

Well actually as i was typing the email, i raftly know the result le. Just that if i don't talk it out i will not "gan xin". I don't want to live in a dream. Ok la, i feel much more release after i settled things down...

My new chapter of my life gonna begin soon. Hope it will be a good one. Its 3.30am now. And i really cannot get into sleep, though i'm feeling a little tired. Haiz... What to do? Blog lor... Nothing much i can do now anyway. But the thing is my mind is blank. I don't know how to continue le...

Sudden thought of this song:

Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming about you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy
Call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time
Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do
Well hey So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day I remember date and time
September twenty secon
Sunday twenty five after nine
In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces
And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know
Why do we never know what we've got till it's gone
How could I carry on
Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say

2009-10-06T21:39:00.002+08:00

My mood today is like so weird. Not happy and not sad, yet i feel release. What happen to me? I feel a little bit of sour but not sad. So confuse about my mood now. Sigh. Now at alicia place. Really don't what am i thinking now. Suddenly feel so blank, and i say blanks is really blank really loss my way. zzz

Sigh blog again later...

The Silly Me

2009-10-04T20:08:00.003+08:00

Time past real fast. Now its already October le. Realised that 2009 is gonna end very fast. Many things had happened this year. Looking forward and hoping that good things will come in soon. I went no where this two days as i am feeling so restless. My mind was all about sis and him. Wondering how are they doing. Really just two of them. Just hoping that sis will over come her problems as soon as possible and stop thinking of that annoying guy,. And also hoping that he will get enough rest as he needs to wake up so damn early every morning for work. Was worrying that he would neglect his studies because of work. As i know that because of that working event he had to skip one or two days of school. sigh...

Today he gave me a call, just to ask me whether i want to get the "nogurt candies" from Australia which will sell it kinda expensive outside but he saw a place where will sell it in a cheaper price. So he called me asking me whether i want it or not. And i agreed. Though its just a short conversation, but finally i heard his voice and he still remember that i like that candies. The warm feeling came into my heart. I don't know why, after he hanged up the phone, i did something silly, i smiled to myself. lol How silly i am. Maybe i really missed him. Everyday i would just hoping that he will give me a least one message. And he did. Sometimes he would even online for a while. Though we did not chat much, but at least i get to have a short chit chat with him, its good enough for me... Today he even called me. Because he need to work most of the times this week, so the chance for us to meet up had became lesser. Though i really want to meet him, want to see him, but still i didn't. As i think he really need to rest. Very worry that he will fall sick as weather is so weird now a days...

Sometimes i really want to talk things out. But think back wad sis had told me. Rather stay in this kind of unknown relationship. Better than after we had make things clear and it may cause us to be very awkward or even will hurt each other. Well, the old sentences, "let nature take its course..." or should i say see if we have the "Fate" ? LOL

Just miss those day we had went out. Though the timing was short, but its a sweet and nice one... Never have this kind of "Xing Fu" feeling before. lol In fact i thought it will exist on me. But it really come true... As if i'm dreaming like tat sio... Alright i got to go now. Bye bye.

2009-10-03T01:34:00.004+08:00

Back for posting...

Met sis at her house. I just feel so helpless, but can only lend her my listening ear and shoulder to cry on. I don't know how can i help her. Really feel helpless. Then walked to Buddy Haoggies for dinner, then called up our ah di Lin Jie to tag along. And we chit chat. Three of us very entertaining sio. Laugh all the way only. lol After dinner, went out walk walk. Walked to sis house down stair hang out till daddy come fetch me...

I feel so guilty sia, sis called me this morning like 7 missed call. Then i sleep untill like pig like that. I guess she had a bad morning as she said she cried till no tears come out and i happy sleeping there...Argh~

Tomorrow is Lantern Festival le. Wish everyone here Zong Qiu Jie Kuai Le!!!

Alright i off to bed le. Good night guys ^^

2009-10-02T01:02:00.003+08:00

Back to post...

Went to meet sis (Alicia) at her house and settle our lunch at her house. Then walked to Yishun Safra for Party World KTV. Sang lots of emo sentimental and a bit of oldies songs today. This was my first time seeing her so down and sad. Both of us today were really emo and damn sad la. But sis problem is much more worse then me. Sign. I'm so worry about her now. I just hope miracle will happen. Sing K for 4 hours plus, then walked to North Point walk walk and ate some finger food.

About 9 plus she went down to AMK to meet cloud, then me home sweet home.

Last night didn't really sleep as partly I cannot get into sleep, partly is because i need to accompany sis to chat on phone till next morning. Only slept for 3 hours last night. Then wake up early morning to settle my own stuff then go meet sis le.

Myself also very confuse about it. i feel better after chatting with Sis and Daryl. Just that i still don't know which way to go. Or should i just wait one week then settle it? Argh~

Ahhhh....Feeling so shag but yet my mind is so damn noisy and annoying. And i really must stop procrastinating le. I had so called just wasted one month man. Di-o-Mi-o!!! Zzzz

Aiya off to bed le la. Good night guys~

2009-10-01T01:34:00.002+08:00

Alright, met Daryl (gal) today for dinner at Buddy Haoggies. It had been very long since we had set down and have a great chat since 3 to 4 months ago. We had heart to heart talk today. We shared a lot of our problems and stuff. And finally after talking to her, at least my heart settled down half. Which will not make me feel so scare and complicated. Just that the other half i need to talk to another person face to face.

After Buddy Hoaggies, we walked to Yishun Safra. Spent ten minutes at the one dollar massaging chair. lol then headed to the sofa outside the cafe&pub. Set there and chit-chat for about 2 hours there...then home.

OMG! I almost done something which is very wrong just now on msn. But lucky me, end up i did not la. hehe hengz ah~

Alright, got to go.

sign off*

2009-09-30T00:42:00.002+08:00

Went Plaza Singapura today with Erict. Were having some window shopping, nothing much to do. Tried some clothing. Still considering whether i want to buy this dress from fox or not:

Cause fox always have this sales thingy, scare i buy now, then next time they sell at half price again. zzz Then Erict tried some jackets. One from Domanchi and another one from Esprit. Both also quite nice. lol But end up both of us never buy anything. haha Then headed to Selegie Road to have bean curd. Rested at the second floor with air conditioned places with the bean curd. Chit Chat there. After that both of us felt a bit tired and sick, but don't really feel like going home, so went to his place hang out awhile, watched the Fann Wong wedding programme from channel 8. Then cab home.

The atmosphere today a bit weird weird. Maybe both of us gonna start have flu soon ba. Haiz... I really have lots of question marks now a days. Don't know what's wrong with me also. Anyway meeting Christ tomorrow to watch the accident...

2009-09-29T01:57:00.000+08:00

Met Jazreel for dinner today at Chinatown. Went to shop around before dinner at chinatown point. Saw one top at Fanny's place, still considering whether i wanna buy or not. haha Then Jazreel bought one dress. Quite nice, but she say sleeveless and too short wanna wear with one extra shirts and leggings with it. Wanna box her liao la. Its like just nice and she so skinny still say fat. Fanny and i like wanna beat her up liao la. LOL

Tomorrow going eat beancurd at Selegie Road with Erict. ^^
Alright i go sleep le. Good night.

2009-09-28T01:22:00.004+08:00

Met Sim Kia today to pass her something at north point. Then went compass point today to meet Erict. Shopped around there and had our lunch at subway. Then headed to his place for awhile. Then took bus down to AMK hub. Then had our dinner at New York New York. Took some random pictures:

Me and Erict :)

Candy Floss hehe

Before

the fantastic crabby >.<

After hehe

We enjoyed our crab till we forgot about the movie timing. Haha But we still manage to rush in time to the cinema. The movie just started just when we reach in the theatre. Heng ar~

The movie end's about 11.30pm. I took bus home, and he will wait for his dad to come fetch him as he had missed the last bus. haha And now i'm blogging here. haha

It was kinda enjoyable day for me... alright. Tired now, will update soon...

Good Night!

2009-09-26T22:23:00.004+08:00

22 September, i met a person who left a speacial feeling in me. Went to catch a movie at a place where i long long time which i never step into it since a few years ago which is Cinelesiure. After that walked all the way to Douby, to Selegie Road, then finally reach Bugis for dinner. When we were on the way to Bugis for dinner, we passed by a temple. We stayed there and prayed awhile and i made a wish to God. And somehow God answered me half on that night. And the other half, I haven't got the answer...

After dinner we walked to the bus-top near the Esplanade to wait for a bus to go home, it was a long journey to reach this bus-stop. We waited for the bus for 30 min, then we realised that there are no more buses already as it was already 12.30am. So he suggest to the river side at the Esplanade to rest for awhile since its already so late. Then headed to some where far far away to get a cab home, due to F1, road had been blocked.

Though it were a very tiring day but its really a enjoyable day for me.

23 September, met him again for a movie. This is our second time for movie. After movie we went to a Japanese restaurant for a lunch. When we were calling for bills, then he realise that his wallet was missing. So after that i quickily paid the bills, then go back to those places we went before to look for his wallet. Both of us thinks that he should had left in the cinema, so went back to the cinema and report to the counter there, and the people there asked us to wait till the current movie finish then they will help us find. And so we waited for almost 1 hour plus. After that one hour of waiting, finally the people there found his wallet. Thank God man. After that went to his place then headed down to orchard as he need to work and i need to meet my friends...

Through out this short period, you left a riddle in my heart. The way you treated me, the way you looked into my eye, the words you spoken to me, everything had saved in my heart disk. You brightened my day, but you also confused me. Did i mistaken you or the feeling is true? Why did you dashed into my world and out of suddenly things just became so silents, as if you disappear out of sudden. God, please alighten me onece again. I suddenly loss my way, suddenly gone very blank...

2009-07-15T23:59:00.003+08:00

Long time never post le...haha cos very busy and also lazy la. haha
I realise that time is really passing really damn fast. And fate this thingy really surprise me... It amazes me too. Though sometimes i may be very disappoint in some kind of view which make me not very satisfy with. But i'm glad that finally he told me something which will actually make me settle down my heart that i will not anyhow think. I wish you all the best and i hope this "fate" will never gonna "fade".

anyway i got to go le...will update soon^^

2009-05-23T17:28:00.010+08:00

回到相遇的地点才知我对你不了解, 以为爱得深就不怕伤悲, 偏偏爱让心成雪我独自走在寂寞的长街回忆. 一幕幕重演我告诉自己勇敢去面对, 就算心碎也完美想起我和你牵手的画面, 泪水化成雨下满天, 如果我和你还能再见面, 就让情依旧梦能圆我们在不同世界想着每一次的误会好想再一次依偎你身边偏偏你有千里远.

一个人喝醉好想找个人来陪, 我们之间有太多的误会. 爱不能再沉睡, 是可悲是摧毁. 我不要再为谁掉眼泪. 爱过才后悔, 想要用酒来麻醉. 我们之间有太多的误会, 爱不能再沉睡, 是可悲是摧毁. 我不要再为谁而心碎. 求求你给我个机会, 不要再对爱说无所谓, 如果相爱是完美, 就让我们用真心去面对. 求求你给我个机会, 不要再对爱说无所谓,留下了太多伤悲, 告诉我你到底爱着谁...

满眼风雪和眼泪都化作尘埃, 再多的苦于事无补. 忘记所有才能够重来, 镜中的人渐渐模糊, 心中的你慢慢清楚. 无情的血打湿双唇, 泛出冷冷一丝苍白, 曾经和你去看的海, 早已冰冻不再澎湃. 那段时光已悄然离开, 而我的心不复存在, 如果我不曾被你伤害, 我就不会如此的明白最深的痛, 让爱醒过来对我来说是最好的坏.

2009-05-13T23:55:00.002+08:00

Last friday went steamboat and pubbing with sis, jie fu and Lin Jie at chinatown and fashion bar at clark quay. Its anjoyable and fun la. We share alot about our luo man shi while steamboat. All of laugh like hell la. Especially story about Norman la. Lin Jie was like giving that funny reaction damn cute can... LOL

After steamboat went to clark quay for drink at fashion bar. We ordered Baileys. It was awesome man. It cost us $178. And it last us a few hours. lol Then continue sharing our stories. lol Then took some random pictures...

Lins >.<
random lolx

steamboat ^^

omg! nor and lin's kissing LOLx
*gay* jkjk

nor and lin's haha

me and sis
*(^.^)*

Baileys Orginal
Shiok~

Hei Zhen & Lin Bai
Name given by sis lol

After drinking, went to sossis for some snack. Sis ate potato wagers, lins and i ate the Egypt's funny ice-cream. Yummy~ Then took bus NR1 home sweet home. LOLx It was a enjoyable and awesome friday man~ haha

The next few days were busying working lor. Then planning to go for another steamboat again this coming friday. Gonna fei si le. lol

Alright i gonna stop here first. haha Update soon. Bye Bye!

2009-05-02T14:17:00.002+08:00

Recently got not much things to do la. As business not very good, will just help out at Lure or will meet sis to hang out. Yesterday met sis for lunch at Buddy. After lunch we headed to Clark Quay to help nor to find job. But i think with his this kind of attitude is very hard to get good job lor. Sian~ Both of us was like damn angry when we saw nor this kind of attitude lor. Ok cut this topic out.

Around 6.45pm went to work at Lure for awhile, till 9pm met sis again at clark quay. We chat alot at the side of the river. And finally she knew my secret. Ahhhh~ ok fine ">,<" No big deal man! Then we had dinner at subway with nor. When we are almost done, nor brother, Danny came and met us. Actually didn't plan to go drink de lor, but because nor never step in to any of the pub before, so ok lor, bring him go see see lor. But this time we didn't get myself drunk la. lol Cause last week both of us like drunk untill so....stupid lor. LOLx

After that cab home with them. Msn for awhile then sleep. Damn tired la~

Later might be meeting sis for dinner. Yeah~

2009-04-26T23:30:00.003+08:00

Ok, i shall post about yesterday first. Alicia and Rayner came to find me when i'm almost done with my work last night. So gan dong can? Cause at the same time i am quite emo la. So i was like very happy lor. lol Went over to Clark Quay after work. Had a hot-dog sanwich at the sossis cafe with them. Alicia force me to eat. ">,<"

After that mini dinner, went to fashionbar. Order a bottle of red wine. The bar is damn cool la. haha very comfortable also. We played the "cai quan". Alicia and Rayner was like bullying me sia. After that i took revenge. LOL and revenge success!!! Muahaha~

Took some photos. Some of the photos still haven't got it yet cause its still at Rayner camera Waiting for him to send to us. Will post more photo when he send to us. lol Alright back to the topic. After fashion bar, we walked around...Then decided to go to Clinic. We ordered a bottle of white wine and the cute drinks with the pike which looks like the hospital thingy. lol After drinking red wine and white wine, guess what both alicia and i were drunk man. Cannot even walk properly. Both of us like uber high la. Poor Rayner have to take care of us. Thank you friend...

This are some of those pictures we took yesterday...

Alicia->Me->Rayner

Interesting Drink lol

Me Drinking

Best Sis Man!

After that took cab home. Then met Alicia again this afternoon at North Point for lunch with her sister Sally and Sally boyfriend Simon. Shop around after lunch. Then headed to Alicia house to hang out. Around evening time, we met Norman for dinner at buddy hoaggies. Then went to choose spect for norman at Khatib central. Then cab home....

So tired and stress man!!! Ok...i think i will stop here today.

Good Night!

2009-04-24T21:50:00.002+08:00

Today was like dramatic day for me lor. I was like middle person. Alicia is even worse, reputation is ruined. Spent almost 6 hours at Norman house to settle this dramatic issue. OK, it was really quite tough and irritating experience for me la. I hope today meeting can help her and Norman at the same time.

Well i only slept not even more then 2 hours last night because of counseling for both parties. Then met her at 8am for breakfast after that headed down to Norman house. All the way to 3.30pm, took bus down to Woodland Causeway Point for lunch at Pizza Hut. She through out the whole day she was like jealous lor. What to do? And i really don't know what to do le. What i can do and i had done. sign* I think there is nothing much Alicia's and I can do le. The rest of the day must see themselves le.

Actually i also very stress regarding my own problems. I am very scare and my fear is getting heavier and heavier... I really don't have the courage to face it... I don't dare and i don't know how to face it. Sign*

I don't feel like blogging le. Will stop here for now.

2009-04-23T03:00:00.002+08:00

Back for posting le...

Met Lin Jie at 11am yesterday at yishun last cabin. Haha he fell asleep when he was waiting for me at the mrt platform, the funny thing was almost everyone were looking at him where he was asleep la. I also don't know why were they staring at him. haha alright back to the topic. Alright first we went to plaza singapura for lunch at Ahjisan Ramen then had movie, "fast and furious 4". lol He was the one who choose the movie. Cos i have no idea what i wanna watch. lol The movie was not bad, quite exciting. At least it dadn't make me fall asleep lor. lol Before movie start, we actually planned to go in and rest, then the person told us that we only can enter 5 minutes before the movie start. Then we were like sian diao lor. Because we cannot enter to the cinema too early, so we've got to kill time first lor. We happened to pass by this shop which sell swords. We were kind of curious about it, so we went in lor. This sales man damn chicken la. Kept telling us that we only can see cannot touch, not even feel it. As if we will spoil the sword like tat. So chicken lor. Then i really got fed-up with this sales man lah, so just walk off lor. When we were about to leave that shop then this sales man was like explaining to us that cause our hand sweat are salty, so it may cause the sword to go rusty. Well, the sword is like 3000 over dollars. Where got so easy rust one. Some more i don't think its made of those cheap mental bah. Alright suan le, cut this stupid sword topic. After that then we went down to yamaha to play piano for awhile lor. haha Lin Jie was like playing canon-in-D. I was so happy and excited la, as this is my favourite but he played half way then he say he don't know. So disappointing lor...

After movie, went down to buy the Taiwan fried chicken with him. Then took bus 171 headed back to yishun. On the way when we were in the bus, both of us fell asleep. Half way through then he suddenly woke me up. Scare me sia, i thought what happen. lol Then we chit chat lor. Stupid Indians boys who were sitting infront of us damn noisy and disgusting la. So irritating, kept turning back and look at us don't know for what la. Ok, heck care them. Then continuing our chatting lor. The bus took almost two hours to reach yishun. Then we alighted at Chong Pang to take bus 811 to khatib. After that he accompany me to buy bubble tea. Hehe cause was really thirsty la. After buying bubble tea, than we will go our own way le lor. haha

Hey thanks alot for accompanying me la, i didn't know you are so tired and busy la. If not i wouldn't make you come out le. haha But thanks, i really appreciate it and do enjoy very much. ^.^

After that, went to khatib mrt station to meet Lay Peng. Then we decided to go orchard as she need to get something. Haha she was like spending so much money la. Like her mother is printing money like that. haha but she bought those useful stuff la. haha This was the first time we go out and talk so much ever since we graduate from secondary 4 lor. Haha i'm glad to see you again ^.^ I didn't buy anything lah, but yet she bought many many things. Especially the mineral makeup, spent $395. And also bought the lap top charger for like $199. Than also bought some CDs and stuff like that. She damn pro la. haha Thanks goodness she got to go at 9pm plus le, or i guess she gonna spent more then that. And i will be very heart pain for her sia. haha

Around 9pm she got to go down to boon lay to help her parent for business, then i took train down to yishun coffee shop to meet mei xin and chew ting for late dinner. Well, as usual, what else? Asking me to go church again lor. Then i think i will see how la...Sometimes just don't feel like going lor. Don't know why also. Ok, straight after that i took bus home. Chat for a while on msn, than dad drive mum, brother and i out for supper. And now i'm blogging it lor. Haha

Lastly, i wanna say that, i'm quite happy today. Cos i just realise that, i don't need to have very big group of friends, of course is good if you have la. But most importantly is, its really enough for me if i got a few true friends to keep it accompany lor. Aint that's is so true that, so what if you have a lot a lot of friends, but none of them truly care about you? Yea~ So that's how i feel today.

Thanks for this phrase: BE LOST, BE FOUND AND BE ALIGHTEN!
Though i don't really get it. But i think there must be something meaningful. =)

2009-04-19T02:02:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went "boon tong kee" with my parent for dinner. Its was yummy of cause. But atmosphere was rather weird. Feeling so sian. Everything seems to be so different. I wonder why. Even for myself. I just realise that i don't really like to talk, always kept very quiet... To certain friends maybe still can talk and chat a bit. But things just so different lor.

I feeling so bothered most of the time. I felt so useless ans helpless. No matter in work, in family or even in relationship. I just feel so helpless ans useless in myself. So what if i dare to speak out. Its helpless!

I dare not love, dare not hate...

sign*

Recently i just feeling so frustrated with myself for being so useless. Sometimes can even got into depression. I also don't know why. Facing quite a lot of problems recently. Sweet, Sour, Bitter... All three kind of flavour. Black and white are like fighting in my brain lor. I feel really tired and stress.

Want to cry, don't dare cry. Want to sleep, cannot get into sleep, kept rolling left and right on the bed. Hungry want to eat, no appetite for food. I don't know what's wrong with me also.

When i reach home, feeling still the same. Hais~

No mood to blog le...

2009-04-16T02:07:00.002+08:00

Met Lin Jie and his cousin Lin Long today for steamboat. Lin Jie and i didn't enjoy the steamboat, cause the food was really awful la. Food not fresh, no red wine, no free flow drinks and soup wasn't very nice as well. And even make me stomach ache lor. Wasted my money sia. They should listen to me in the first place to go another place man. Food there are nicer, fresher, got free flow drinks and more delicious snacks lor. Grrr~ The food already so NOT NICE, some more drinks have to pay. This steamboat is really sucks lor.

Ok lah, although I'm not satisfied with the food, but three of us did enjoy our self la. He's funny la, make lin long and I laugh like hell lor. Joker sia. After steamboat, we walked to Clark Quay for ice-cream, watching people playing that bungee at the river side. Then took bus 851 home.

Long time never been so happy le... lols

Alright, got to go. Bye!

2009-04-12T23:15:00.005+08:00

Back to post le.

sign*

well, i shall post about today first.

Interview was alright. Hope the highest pay one will go successfully. haha

Met L.J today. Chit chat abit. Then went to watch Jacky Chan movie. Its was a bit bloody, but overall the movie was not bad. After the movie then realised that his friend so called p.s us. lol Then met my families for dinner at causeway point. Bought 3 triangels, which is actually from Italy (Roma). Pink colour stand for romance and love. Black and Red stand for career. Mini Orange one is stand for Gui Ren. They are cute ok. Really like them lah, and i hope they really bring good luck to me. hehe

Recently i am just feeling really down. But I'm just feeling so stress and miserable. Whenever i see them quarrel and hear her cries, my heart just feeling so pain, as if my heart is broken into many pieces. I do not know what can i do. How can i help them. Just feel so helpless. I do not know who to talk to. Tears drop onto my cheeks anytime whenever i think about it. DI-O-MI-O! Why are there always a tough challenge for me to face. I felt that they are putting all the hopes to me. I feel stress. I'm loss... Why i can comfort people, and i can't comfort myself?

2009-03-30T22:18:00.002+08:00

HAHA!

Alright, i know my blog had dead for quite some times. Now back to blog.

LOL

No choice la...had been very busy with business and everything. And finally now i'm free today for blogging. Just done corn-perming for my hair today. Looks a bit weird, but i like it. haha And i had let go of something which hidden in my heart for very long le. And we are ok now. Thanks to meixin kept nagging me...

Hmmm...nothing much to blog about. Got to go le. Will update soon!

2009-01-24T21:36:00.002+08:00

Hello Everyone!

I'M BACK FOR BLOGGING!!!

LOLX

Haha~ Ok here i come. Its really long since i do my last posting. As I'm really busy with my work and stuff. haha My exams at Cosmoprof was awesome. I DID IT! Successfully got my Diploma. Yesh!!!

This are some of those stuff that i had went through last few weeks:

-Exams for my exams
-Portfolios
-Zoo Night Safari Fashion Show (makeup)
-Companies D&D fashion show (makeup)
-Trial Run Brides Make-over
-D&D make-over
-Mediacorp Projects
-Helping Johnny for accessories businesses
etc.

Had been went out with my brother, Leon and his girlfriend, Zi Hui for Chinese New Year clothing and stuff. Didn't really got what I wanted, I manage to buy my needs. Of course i also did some shopping with my friends. Well, i did not do much shopping this year, as I'm very busy with my work. Because for now, career is my first priority...

Last two days i received a call from 'Instant Glamour'. The manager there wants me to go down for a trial run makeup. I don't know how he got my number or even know me. But i felt honour to be invited to join someone company. lol Ok, so i agreed to go for that so called interviewed. And he also asked me to bring one model along. And so as usual, i invited Constance again to be my model. So both of us met up yesterday for that trial makeup...

The results is not bad. And he also like Constance face. Wanted her to be his model. Isn't it great? haha After that met her sister, her sister boyfriend and he brother for dinner at Manhantan Fish Market. Really Nice! Its really better than fish and co. Friends here, really got to try it man. haha Then headed down to Ang Mo Kio to look for Constance cosmetics. I think i had influenced to do makeup sia. Lolx Alright...soon we finished shopping, then they sent me home. =) Thank you!

Ok, I should post something about today. Went to help Johnny to work at Lure for that two hours in the morning. Then went home to meet Leon and Zi Hui for shopping. We went down to Bugis. Had our lunch at one of the Japanese restaurant at Bugis Junction. After that we shop around there and also went to Bugis Street. Nothing caught my eye there, but Zi Hui bought one very nice and cheap top there. Its cost only ten bucks. Really nice man. Though i really love it, but too bad, i have self-awareness, i'm too fat for that top. lol

After we finished shopping at Bugis area, then we took bus to Ang Mo Kio once again for second round shopping. Both Zi Hui and I bought a shaw with some buttons on it. Which cost us like twenty-nine dollars and ninety cents. This price for a shaw its consider a bit too expensive for me. But i really like it man, and i had went in that shop for like so many times. This time round i must really buy it. Or else i think i will regret, as i also need this shaw for my chinese new year dress. We went off around 8pm plus. Leon want to go Zi Hui house, so i went home first as i'm kind of tired already. And now i'm blogging. haha

Last but not list, i want to wish everyone here a early Happy Chinese New Year!!!
Remember to get many ang baos ok? LOL

2008-12-31T22:06:00.003+08:00

~HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE~

Arhh~ All of us are gonna grow one year older liao. Is this a good sign or bad one? Lolx I really miss those old days sia. But I know we can't stay in the past forever. Gonna go further and succeed our career as long as our goal. Alright, where shall we start....

Today is the last day of year 2008. Time is passing real fast. Anyway i wish all of you have a great year ahead in year 2009. All the best friends Oo(^.^)oO

These pictures were taken one day before at pacific plaza after our so called supper. haha We were doing nothing at the resting area, thinking of where to go next or take what transport to go home. Lame right? haha ok lah... Better then doing nothing lor. haha

Met my friend, Shane yesterday at Ang Mo Kio for tea-time at Suki Sushi. He is a financial service consultant. We actually shared alot about those career we are taking, businesses, marketing and also economies stuff. Indeed it isn't easy. And doing a business is not as simple as we are thinking. Of course its gonna be tough, but all of us mustn't give up and really gonna buck up. From his conversation, i had learnt something from him.

Doing a business and being a professional is totally a different case...

WORK HARD AND WORK SMART!

In the olden days, one bowl fish ball noodles cost us only like a few cents to a dollar, to two dollars. Now it cost us like 2 to 3 dollars. In a restaurant its cost around 5 dollars. Imagine in future a bowl of fish ball noodles gonna cost us like 10 dollars...

I estimated... I think in future if we are earning 3k per month, its not even gonna be enough for our daily needs and stuff man. Very sian lor. So how? Gonna jia you for studying and working man. Our next generation gonna be even more tough man...

Sign*

I feel so stress and worry man. In our generation already so tough. Cannot imagine what will happen to the next generation. I see this industry very complicated and tough. Is it because i came in early? But i just felt so worry. Sometimes i just dislike money so much. But without money, we cannot survive. Sian.

"Money" is dead. But why it has the big power that it can bring people, the world to such a difficult situation? Why is there this thing call money is this world? Yes, "money" can makes people very very happy, but it can also makes feeling so troubled and exhausted...

Well... Nothing is free in this world man. Just focus more on studies and career man. Think too much can really go crazy.

Ok lah...got to go to join the fun. Once again, HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone! haha Enjoy!

2008-12-30T00:12:00.003+08:00

Met April for shopping and ate steamboat at bugis today. Haha She wanted get a dress but she couldn't find any that she like. If she saw something she like, but its too expensive for her. Damn funny lah. Took a neoprint. Haha very funny la. I bought one concealer at The Face Shop. Wanted to buy one lip gloss, but the colour i wanted to buy were sold out. Sian~

Then took bus down to Chinatown Point and People's Park. Wanted to help April find her dress, but sian lah...All the nice cloths were sold out liao lor. Sorry April. Wasted your time man. Then trained down again to Orchard. April meeting her hubby, then just nice Jazreel called me for a drink at Orchard also. But i have to wait for her like 45 minutes to an hour at Pacific Plaza =.=. So while waiting for her i shop around Sasa then walk to Royal Plaza to shop for some cosmetics. Didn't manage to get what i wanted to. Then set at one the bench at the waiting corner to wait for Jazreel Da Xiao Jie to reach. Lolx After that we went to our lao di fang, the cafe at pacific plaza to have our drink. But Jazreel ordered the fried Ice-Cream. haha I drank like 3 cups of drinks lor. As i'm really very thirsty man. Lolx Soon the cafe is closing, so we decided to go to the bench again to rest, chat, take photos then go borders for rounding. Finally took MRT home sweet home. Planning to meet again tomorrow. hehe

Today was a long day man. haha But i'm happy lah. Friends are awesome. Hmmm...i will post some photos when Jazreel send me:) Ok la. I'm very tired now le. Shall log off le. Bye!

2008-12-28T23:49:00.003+08:00

HaPpY FaMiLy!!!

~I LoVe My FaMilY~

Today is my really happy day. Cause my long lost God Father come back. Yea~ Yeah! This coming Chinese New Year gonna be great man. Jie Da Huan Xi le... See i make things happen. Who say he won't come back? Thank God man! Most importantly is grandma is happy, God Father is happy and everyone is happy *(-^.^-)*

Alright, met Johnny this afternoon to discuss about some business stuff at marina square. Then shop shop awhile at SaSa. Then trained down to Yishun North Point to meet my God Father, God Mother and Song Ling Mei Mei. She grew up so tall le... Haha I so happy to see them come back. Yi Jia Tuan Ju. Yeah!!!

I'm so glad to see my family happy. Then daddy drive us, whole family to go supper. Then back here blogging. Ok...I'll stop here for today le. haha

2008-12-26T21:41:00.004+08:00

HaPpY BirThDaY Luan ZhEnG!

Its Luan Zheng birthday yesterday. We celebrated her birthday at Fish and Co which located beside park mall. While waiting for the others, i walked around at park mall, it reminds me about the time when i was still in church. The old hogc, at FTMS house. It was so warm and so homely. Went to the basement where we used to eat at the QQ noodle house, ya-zhou and hans... Anyway cut this topic lah, i feel so sad and really miss those old days and old friends...

Alright, met lots of old ScGs friends. Ate the "Fish and Chips in town" with the awful mushroom soup. Lolx Hey people, if you happen to go fish and co, don't order their mushroom soup. It taste really bad. Jazreel was late for an hour plus =.= After we had our lunch at fish and co, met Constance at plaza singapura. Then we walked to cinelesiure. Took a neoprint with Constances and Luan Zheng. OMG! I never take neoprint since last year August sia. Well its fun la. That neoprint machine clash on one couple when they were taking it. Damn funny la. Probably is that machine dislike them la. lol ok, after that took mrt to Khatib to met Hilda. I had dinner with her at Buddy Haoggies. Then we walked to Yishun Safra party-world KTV. Then arcade. haha damn fun la...

Went to watch Bedtime Stories with my younger sister Dior and Sim Kia at North Point Golden Village. I find this movie not very nice lor. Wasted my ten bucks >,<" Aiya~ Whatever la... Sian! Ok, after that window shopping for awhile then go home...

Haiz...suddenly just feel abit moody. Maybe reccently i just think too much le. Ok la...go off first. Sayonara!

2008-12-25T01:46:00.003+08:00

MeRrY ChRiStMaS EvErYoNe!!!

HaPpY BiRtHdAy To HilDa aNd LuaN ZheNg!

When down to Pasir Ris to celebrate Hilda birthday with Luke, Serene, Chin Choo and Chin Fang this afternoon. Its was really fun and funny lah. All of us were actually using wip-cream to smash on Hilda face at e-hub pasta mania and she was screaming like mad women. haha All of us had actually planned to gave her a surprise. Anyway our plan had ran successfully. Well done everyone! haha Then when to the buddie hoaggies cafe just beside the pasta mania to had our lunch. Yummy!!! I ate the fish and chip set meal. Indeed it was quite nice, just that i find it abit oily. Lolx

After that headed to Hilda house by taxi, cause she said she want to go home bath as she smell wip-cream all over. haha so pity her lah, so Luke and i accompany her to her house when Serene, Chin Choo and Chin Fang had left. Waited for her about 20 minutes. Then we took taxi again down to Toa Payoh, they alight me at near by mrt station. After that went down again to Ang Mo Kio ave 3 to meet my customer for trial-run bridal makeup which took me about 45 minutes to complete makeup and hairdo. At around 8.30pm when to Rose house at Binchang Rise for Christmas Eve party. Wow! It was so happening at her house. Foods which cooked by rose were really nice. I love the Roasted Turkey the best man. Haha

After that daddy came and fetch me and then fetch mummy to go for supper. Yummy! Yummy! But sad thing is gonna gain alot of weight man >.<" Well, once a year never mind la. hehex

Tomorrow gonna celebrate Luan Zheng at Fish and Co. heh! heh! I believe its gonna be amazing, and i'm gonna see some of my old friends from ScGs. haha

It had been a long day today sia...Yawn! Very tired sia~ Alright i shall continue the next day again. Good night everyone=)

2008-12-24T03:07:00.002+08:00

My School Makeup Projects for some company D&D:

Time past really fast!!!

haha sorry friends, i had been very busy for my portfolio and exams this few days. So no time for blogging. LOL but now i'm back. hehe

I had just graduated from Cosmoprof and completed my diploma course. I'm happy, but also very sad. Happy is, i finally got my diploma. Sad is...I'm no longer a student anymore as i've got to start my career and work le...

Now let me rest for this few days first before i get started. Tomorrow i will be going to meet my customer for a trial run bridal makeup. She will be my first customer. Hopefully this business gonna be successfully done. So that i'm gonna be her actual makeup artist for wedding...

This are some of my current trial run work pieces:

Poor clement~ Look! He had injured so badly LOLx

Sok Zhen aka Constances, she's my great model man! haha

(fashion look)

~she has a sweet smiles~

Looks like she's gonna marry yea? LOL

~Nice~

haha i will post more photos from my portfolio and exams photos up when i got the soft copy from my school. It will definetly look better. haha

Oh ya! Its my great sister, Hilda's darling birthday. Happy Birthday to you first man! haha

Anyway i got to go now. Will post again soon. yupp! haha

2008-12-06T23:34:00.002+08:00

Hello Everyone! I'm here for posting le.

Today was a very busy and great training day for me. Went to Zoo Night Safari with my school to help models make-up. I had help more than 6 models to make-up today in 3 hours plus time. Well I felt that its a good training programme for me. Met different people from diffrent places. Yea, it was an interesting programme. I hope i will have more of this kind of programme again. For now just look forward for my portfolio and chingay programme, as well as my businesses. lolx

I felt really tired through out reccently. Really stress and tiring. Sometimes can even get moody easily...

Sign*

Sometimes i really don't understand humans...Its so troublesome...hais~

Anyway i'm feeling very exhausted now. Will continue blogging another time. Bye bye!

Family Dance

2008-12-01T22:14:00.001+08:00

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

2008-11-28T22:14:00.003+08:00

Heh Heh

Back to post. I was lazy to blog yesterday.

Oh well, yesterday was miserable day for me. Because of that stupid auntie. She drop my whole makeup kit on the floor and just looked at me then ran away... And she didn't even apologies to me. Then i realise that my kinda most expensive shimmer eye-shadow powder is brokened. It cost me for like almost $50 and its brand new. She didn't come to work today when i was looking for her. I'm heart broken, really heart broken. I'm sad. Cause its so expensive and i didn't even use it yet then gone liao lor... Argh!!!

Ok this is what had happen yesterday. Firstly Vibe, Glanice, Constance and I went down to the Thai Restaurant to had our lunch after class. Total cost of our bills was around $40+. Glanice paid to $50 to that waitress and the waitress pay us back $40. LMAO! Funny lor. And all of us had free delicious lunch yesterday. After that went back to the class room to practise makeup with Constance. Then unhappy case happened (MY MAKEUP KIT ISSUE) =< home=")

And today was a long day to me as i'm feeling very tired. LOL Went to school, then went down to Vibe granny home for visit. After that shop around at Tiong Bahru Plaza. 3pm sharp we went to Sakae Sushi for buffet lunch. Ate till we really full then went down to Bobbie Brown company to look out for cosmetics. But we reached there too late. So we couldn't get anything there. But we found one makeup shop at Clark Quay Central. We bought many stuff there. The products there were damn nice lor. But its kind of ex, so i only manage to get those important stuff. And Vibe bought alot. I know as a makeup artist, we have to buy lots of colours for our customer to choose but budget at this moment first la. Hehe!

After we done our shopping then we took bus 851 home. Its was really crowded in the bus that i need till i reach Ang Mo Kio then i will have a sit. My leg was damn tired lor, and i was very sleepy just now. Anyway i'd reached home le lah...LOL

Hey! No matter what is happening now, i believe that this is a training and a learning process to you. I know its really tough for you right now. But i know you're gonna win this war. No matter what both of us will be behind you, supporting you. Don't worry so much. I know you're a great person with an awesome future. Keep it up and finish your race alright. All the best to you friend=)

2008-11-26T00:58:00.003+08:00

Back for bloggy...

Actually nothing much to post about.

Didn't go for school today cause was feeling a little bit unwell. So i decided to stay at home to rest and also do some research. Wow! I saw some of those brilliance fashion catwalk makeup which really amazes me. How i wish i'm the makeup artist. I really want to improve more for my makeup skills!!!

I'm really very excited for my coming events. I wish my business will be good as i'm going to set up my own company very soon. Though i know its gonna be tough, but i love what my aunt Serina said: "YES, YOU CAN!". Its so encouraging in my aunt email. I almost drop my tears.

"Tian Wu Jue Ren Zhi Lu", I know i'm gonna do it. Ahhh!!! I'm excited, yet i've got the fear and worries. Di-O-Mi-O!!! I seriously wanna cry man. Sometimes i wanna give up but my heart is telling me that i cannot give up and really not to disappoint those who are supporting me... No No No, I'M NOT GOING TO GIVE UP MAN!

These are some of the latest pictures:

Long lost friend, miss ya ;D

Say Cheeze!!!

Smile=)

Looking forward my next makeup practise. Thank you so much for your support. Haha Yes, don't worry, i will not teach you. But i don't mind sharing it with you. LOL

PicTuReS!!!

2008-11-25T01:23:00.005+08:00

Gowns For Bridal Portfolio:

Confrim Dress^^

Sweet Look=)

CaT's Eye:

A StAgE oR RoAdShoW Look (GrEen DeViL):

SoMe Of ThE FakE InJuRieS (SpEcIal EfFeCts MoDueL):

Bullet Hole

2008-11-25T00:36:00.005+08:00

Ahhh!!! I'm late for school today!!! My grandma and mummy actually woke me up this morning at 8.30am and after they left my room, i slept again till 9.45am. And i need to reach school by 10.30am. So i end up taking cab to school instead of taking mrt. Thank God that its after 10am, so no ERP charge. LOL

Lucky i reached just in time when teacher was about to start the demonstration...

Met sok zhen at Cathay building to fetch her to my school as she is my model for today and my portfolio day. haha

Evening Bridal Makeup (^.^)

Just Smile=)

Day time Bridal Makeup

Not so satisfy for this makeup:(

After our lesson end, when down to Killiney Cafe for lunch, then went back to class to continue our makeup practise...

When we finished the makeup, we took bus 857 to Yishun for her bridal gown fitting... heh! heh! Saw those photos and hair accessories there and i've got some ideas for my portfolio le. But still STRESS!!!

Went back home to put my makeup kit after the fitting session. Rest for awhile then went to had our dinner at north point Japanese food court.

Took bus 851 down to Sok Zhen house to discuss what outfit to wear for the fashion look for portfolio. Went home at around 10pm...

Anyway its getting late, will upoload more photos tomorrow:)

Good night!

2008-11-14T17:05:00.002+08:00

Just came back from school...

Had my lunch with Vibe and Jiamin. Again we went to eat the Hai Nan Chicken Rice. Its nice lah. Then i took bus 857 back to Yishun. I fell asleep in the bus. Don't know why am i feeling so tired now a days, and always feeling so mood swing out of sudden...woosh~

Sometimes i just find life so interesting but also rather stress and tiring...

I really miss my schooling life in primary and secondary life. I miss those olden days. Miss all my old friends. The biggest regret in my life is i did not really treasure my secondary time...I had put most of my times in that places. Well...its all the past. But think back, its kind of wasted my efforts...I really don't understand...

I'm trying hard to wash away all those unhappy memorises, its really hard. I always got nightmare about the past and i realise that my road are so narrow and things happened so early in my life. What i see and what i had experienced makes me feel so tiring and the pains will appear into me anytime. I'm afraid of history will turn back to me again...

Anyway...Now its just a new start of my life. Which is [ Make Up Artistry & Beauty World ] ! Woots!

I don't care whether there is politics or whatever shit out there. I'm gonna chiong till i succeed! I know its really hard now but I'm gonna fight this war. I'm gonna succeed, and I WILL!

And i wanna very glad to know my new classmates and friends in my new school. Cosmoprof Academy. I shall not name you guys out. You know who you are if you are reading this post=) Thanks guys for all your cares, yours friendliness, your support and everything. I really appreciate this friendship very much...

2008-11-12T21:39:00.005+08:00

Haha well today was a great day (except for the short while fight after class) , at the same time i'm getting really tired.

Oh man! Both of you scared me today just after the lesson. First time i see Vibe so angry and so frustrated. They almost fight! Its like Oh my gosh! And you really disappointed me as a friend.

For my goodness sake, please lah you are not only disgracing our class, our race and also our school lor...argh! People gossip behind you, and she as a friends give you advices and trying to help you, you still wanna beat people up. And you are disturbing and affecting your classmates education like this!!!

DISGUSTING!!! IRRITATING!!! HORRIBLE, TERRIBLE & VEGETABLE!!!

I HATE PEOPLE WHO ARE TAKING THIS KIND OF STUPID DRUGS LOR...WASTE MONEY, AND ALSO WHAT FOR? YOU WILL ONLY GET CAUGHT BY CID ONE DAY. AT THE SAME TIME IT ONLY MAKE YOURSELF LOOK SO STUPID SO BLUR AND IT WILL SERIOUSLY RUIN YOU GREAT FUTURE...SILLY FREAKING DISGUSTING!!!

Haiz...Oh well, let's not mention this issue le man. She really upset me seriously and honestly I can see Vibe very upset too. I hope she will get rid of the freaking whatever drugs she's taking la.

Anyway as usual i need to get up early for school. Thank goodness i do not have to work today. Yeah! After class, went to catch a movie with Vibe and Glanice. We watched "High School Musical 3". The show was not bad. We had our lunch at MacDonal before movie.

After movie, Glanice went home. Then Vibe and I went around for shopping at Plaza Singapura. Actually I wanted to go for soak off my fake nails. But their prices was rather ex. And why is Jean Yip hiring such a ridiculous china chicks? Which don't even know how to communicate with the customers? Don't even know what is "soak off nails"? Wah lao!!! You really disgrace Jean Yip!!!

Oh well...heck care den...I just guess that one day everything in singapore will all make in china even all "singaporean" will then make in china too. Everytime i i hear their chicky voice i will feel like vomit...

Anyway i will just stop here first...

2008-11-05T22:51:00.004+08:00

Hello Everyone,

I'm back to post again=)

Anyway this few days i had been busying for school projects, work and studies. Though is really tiring but its worth. Had been hanging out with Vibe most of the time recently. And we will always discuss about school, future career, driving and more of those girls' talk.

I had my lunch with Vibe, Jia Min and Glanice after school today then went over to far east plaza with Vibe to collect my pay, bring Vibe for job interview and also manicure. Then took bus 171 all the way to yishun. The trip is really long and both of us fell asleep and we were freezing in the bus. Then went back home to take my makeup kit to Lay Peng house to help her do makeup for practising... Ok lah, the makeup result was not bad just that have a few mistakes that i need to improve with.

Vibe was like saying both Lay Peng and I don't looks like friend. Maybe we long time never meet le lah. Some more got some stupid misunderstanding past two months. That's why we so quiet lor.

Oh well...pass let it pass. I don't give a damn anyway.

November 2008 to January 2009 will be my uber busy months. As i have examinations, port folios, work, chingay 09 etc. to attend.

Finally i know my portfolio examination duration time! Its 8 hours! For like 4 kinds of looks. U.U" Stress!!! Oh my gosh!!! I will be stuck for like 8 hours!!! I think my four models will fall asleep too! LOL But i'm kinda nervous also lah.

"""(U_U)"""

LOL

Alright....I'm really really very nervous and scare now. And also can't wait to practise and improve also. Of course i'm also very stress now also.

*scream! scream!*

Ahhhhh!!!! I think i better go rest first le.

tata!

2008-10-30T00:08:00.003+08:00

Yeah~ Back for blogging!

LOL

Alright how should i start?

Tuesday after school went around yishun for mini shopping for some school stuff with Vibe. After that Vibe came to my house to do some researches, share some thoughts, practise some makeup skill and discuss some project together. Then went down to coffee shop for tea-time and chit-chat. Around evening time met Wan Zhao for dinner. Reach home around 10pm plus....

Wednesday got no class. So i met Vibe for cosmetics shopping and some girls shopping at Orchard Road. Went to Far East Plaza, Royal Plaza follow by Takashimaya and finally Plaza Singapura. Both of us shop untill we nearly broke and it was damn tiring. Imagine we walk all over to Plaza Singapura from Far East Plaza all the way to Douby Ghuat. LOL But its was fun la. haha Really enjoyed myself these few days. haha Vibe spent almost $400 plus. It was so shocking and amazing when i shop with her lah. LOL

Later which is Thursday, gonna go for school and really can't wait to learn more and succed as a professional makeup artist man. Both Vibe and i are looking forward to chingay event as a makeup artist. Anyway i've found one more eating partner and shopping partner le. Both of us almost has the same thoughts and goal. Yea! muahaha...

Okay lah, i got to go see.

Sayonara!

~Sunday Post~

2008-10-27T00:48:00.002+08:00

Phewz~

Finally got home and its the time for me to rest le...

Today i got two troublesome customers. They quarrelled so badly because of a mini $9 black t-shirt with a mini flower =_=" see how silly they were... Both wanted to buy the same t-shirt. Luckily i had an extra piece, or o really don't know how to settle both of them down. One is a Singaporean and another one i think is from china. Freaking china women... Anyway I'm not gonna talk much about this two crazy women le...They're making me headache!

Business was not bad, just that i'm so irritated by that china women. Her voice irritated me la. Oo"(>.<)"oO so sian lor...

Sometimes really very tired of those irritating people la. I'm getting so frustrating with nagging, politics, and those stupid problems... The only time i can quiet down myself is only when i'm outside alone or with my friends. Best is to be alone sometimes for window shopping.

Anyway tomorrow is public holiday, no school, but i have to work. Which is the really sian-ness. Haiz...what to do. Retailing lines is always like this. I wish i can get out of retailing line as soon as possible when i become a real makeup artist. But lucky my company is not so strict that i can have some times to do my own thing or even secretly use lappie to surf net. LOL

Okay lah, i think i will stop here for today...
Bye byee!

2008-10-24T20:44:00.003+08:00

Time is running really fast...

Sometimes really feel so excited about things which are coming up, sometimes i also very afraid about some bad thing will happen. I cannot deny that i am very scare of problems and stuff, but i know i have to face it. Life...really complicated.

I always remind myself about this phrase by my aunt, Serina:

Life has its ups and down. Sometimes the sun shines, sometimes the rain pours. But don't forget, it takes both sun and rain to make a rainbow...

Oh well, basically NO PAIN, NO GAIN.

Anyway, went to have lunch with Vive and Umi this afternoon after school. They are my new friends in my class. Oh man~ I can't believe that i'm the youngest there sia, although i know i don't look like the youngest there. LOL Sian~ Means i look too mature (old)... Oo'"(>.<)'''oO Alright let's go back to our main topic. What i can say is Vive is a quite a straight forward and caring person and Umi is a very friendly person. Not forgetting Haziza, she didn't join us for lunch, but i just feel like talking about her. She is my first person i know in this school and also one of my good friend in class. Yea~ And she is the most friendly Malay friend that i ever know man. Cause i feel that some of the Malay people out there are kinda raises. OK, no offend. But that is what i feel lor, and actually its the fact.

After lunch, i took bus 851 back to yishun. Then i went to Body Shop for some personal needs shopping. Spent around 70 bucks there. Damn heart ach lah, but no choice cause i have to. Then went to Chong Pang to buy some school needs, at the same time went to aunty Karen shop to see some cloths. Bought one shirt there. Then have some chit-chat with them. Her husband uncle Dai treat me tea and cheese cake. So nice of him. haha. After that went home to have some study and rest. And now i'm blogging here. LOL

I think i will just stop here bah...

Will update again soon when i have time.

tata!

2008-10-23T18:43:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone,

here comes my new post. LOL

Had been busy schooling and working with my uber heavy make-up kit this few days. But its fun la.

OMG!!! I'm damn happy last two day man...

One day i happened to go to marina square "sasa" for shopping without my make-up kit, i was looking for some cosmetics. Then one sales assistant came to me who's a guy, and he asked me. Are you a make-up artist? Then i ask why, then he replied me, cause you looks like a make-up artist. And i was like so super happy lah. LOL Then i told him that i'm just a student make-up artist. Then he said that i have a makeup artist de "feng fan" lol mean something like got the makeup artist style... haha i cannot believe man. HAHA

Yuan Lai i already look like a make-up artist.... LOL

HAHAHA~

I realize recently that i only started school for only three and i had learned quite a lot le. I'm so excited to learn more skills. And i want to upgrade myself!!! muahahahaha~

I WANT TO BE LIKE NEXT ANDY LEE AND SAM ONG! THE PROFESSIONAL MAKEUP ARTIST!!!

Now i kinda dislike weekend, cause NO SCHOOL!!! LOL But i have to work la. Even at my work place, I'm also sort of learning how to make accessories from Christine. YAY!!! I'm not gonna waste my time anymore man. Sometimes i will do some revision while I'm working in the shop since I'm like so free there, sometime can even use laptop to surf net or play game... lolx so good job, where to find sia??? LOL

Anyway I'm also planning to do some small mini online business of accessories and stuff also with my gugu, Serina... Will update about this issue soon. haha Wish me good luck bah. Cause i felt that doing a business is not easy as the economy is so bad now a days in the industry. Will see how la. lol

Ok, i got to go now. I'm actually working now, using lappy.
see how nice part time job I'm working. LOL

Jealous? too bad la... i know its hard to find.

muhahahha~~~

tata!

2008-10-21T22:15:00.002+08:00

Oh yea! Oh yea!

My new chapter of my life story had just began one day ago.

School lesson in Cosmoprof was fun and interesting. At the same time, i had learned quite a lot too in only like two days. Today is my second day of my school. Starting to know more people there. People there came from different country and different background. Some people there came from Russell, Malaysia, Indonesia, Hong Kong, Bradley etc. And some are local. Most of them were kind of friendly especially one of the Malay girl who's will be my partner model for this week.

My class trainer, Lilu is a very helpful and patience teacher. Really enjoy her lesson very much. Looking forward for next lesson day after day. LOL

I'm lovin it and i really enjoy every single lesson in class. Yay!

Alright i got to go le. I'm working tomorrow after school, so i shall rest early tonight.

tata=)

2008-10-18T19:46:00.003+08:00

Today I was chatting with my aunt, Serina on MSN. I feel that I'm so lucky that I have such a great aunt like her. Its really God blessing me. Thank you for encouraging me, share thoughts with me, and guide me. I really don't how to express my feeling, but really very thankful. One day, I will fly over to New Zeland to visit you and come for holiday. Hopefully i can even work there. You're awesome! God bless you man!

Really looking forward to our online business. Yay! It will succeed!

Count down, one more day to start school! I'm getting more and more excited about it. Yes i will make it!!! Kambatek!!!

I have my goal now!!! Sure I will make it happen. No matter what I must succeed. I cannot let my aunt, my mum and my friends down. I must do it!

2008-10-17T21:39:00.002+08:00

Finally I can get some rest le. Today is my off day. Long time never had a good sleep le. LOL

Two more days my school is starting le. I'm very excited about it and also a bit of worries.

So sian...I just felt that something is missing in my life. I realise that times really past very very fast. Alright i shall not think so much. Like what Irene ans my aunt said. I think i really worried too much and think too much le.

I hope my everything will just go smoothly...

sign*

I'm very tired. Both physically and mentally tired. When will those problems end. Why must i face this kind of problems. Why? What can i do? I have no power to settle it. Can i just heck care of those stuff...i really don't know what to do. I'm very scare...I'm just so afraid to face this kind of stuff...

Hello!!!

2008-10-13T00:39:00.002+08:00

HELLO! I'M BACK!

Oh! Is 12 October le... LOL

Rawz....11 October sales was bad bad bad!!! I ate an egg man! Oo"(>.<)"oO
Cannot! cannot! Tomorrow must do a better one. Rawzzz!!!

Anyway I'm so damn tired lah...this week didn't really get to rest lor. Everyday work work work and work. Luckily I'm working at level one, at least got Christine to chat with me sometimes. But i realised that she is really a quiet person, but she's great lah. Sometime she is quite funny also. Haha She's a smart person man! Those accessories she had made were so beautiful and unique. Freinds if you guys are free, must come down to our shop and take a look. Or you can visit her blog shop man. I had linked it at my links there le. The name is Rebirth. Yea? haha She also selling cute t-shirts and mini bags too! haha

Okay, i think i need to go le... Bye!

Announcement!!!

2008-10-12T18:28:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!!!

Anyone to find a part-time job? I have a lobang man! LOLx
If you wanna check out more information about this job can go to this website, Rebirth-creation.blogspot.com. =D

Hey friends, if you wanna find prom-night dresses, don't need to such so many places so troublesome wor. I am working in the boutique at far east plaza. My company do customization too. You will get a very good prices from me too! Sure will give you a great discount man. Feel free to visit my boutique website if you are interested man! Haha

Anyway i'm working now la. Will update again tonight=)

Tata!

GOOD NEWS!

2008-10-12T01:05:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone!

GOOD NEWS!

I'm very happy today cause my sales for today was super uber good lah. Long time didn't have so good sales le. Yeah!!!

Anyway now Clement is my new guy model now. Finally i found my models for my portfolio le. Guys and Girls all found le. Yay! Less worries le man. Haha Thanks for all of your helps man! haha

Anyway i got to go soon le. Bye bye!

A random one!

2008-10-10T21:21:00.003+08:00

Ahhh...no mood no mood today!
I'm feeling so tired. I'm lack of rest! Everyday must work work work and work!
So sian. School is starting soon le.
I'm so scare that i cannot do well. How how how?
Course i need to half work and half studying.
School in the morning, and work after school.

Self Encouragment:
THEA YEO SHI YIN~ you must hang on there, you can-you can-you can do it de! Nothing is impossible de. Chiong arh!!! Stop worrying and thinking about those unneccessary stuff sure can do better de!!! Gambatek!!! Chiong to your goal man!!! A professional make-up artist!!!

Suddenly I'm feeling so envious and proud of my brother sometimes. Course i just felt that he is so talented. So success no matter in secondary school, ite, poly, arts, computer and N.S, I'm sure he's gonna succeed in his future career as a very awesome and a outstanding great designer=)

Anyway i don't feel like blogging le. Will update again next time. Bye!

Hates and Loves

2008-10-09T22:53:00.003+08:00

"KILLING ME SOFTLY WITH HIS SONG", indeed its killing me~ Oh well, i shouldn't be thinking of that anymore. I should concentrate and focus about what I'm doing now...

Last two days was my off. As usual went for work today till 5.30pm, than Daryl came to meet me for dinner and accompany me go shopping for my books. lol We ate dinner at Crystal Jade restaurant at Takashimaya, than went to Kinokunia. Was hunting for some fashion and design magazines/books. Oh well, the dinner was quite alright, just that i recently have no appetites to eat. Haiz~ Sales was not very good at this season which I'm really concern about. Don't know how to face my boss lah. I'm stress man...

This few days had been reflecting the past. Not a few months back past, but one or two years back de memories. I really miss it what Hilda mentioned. The pure one and the happy one. But i know it can never comes back to us.

Mickey, tell me how then i really really let go of this big mickey. Its already ten months le. Why the presence of this feeling is still there??? Damn it lah!!!

I understand now. Don't worry, you don't have to hide away from me or even avoid. I've got it. Carry on with your flirting and your freaking character. I have never since such a freaking, so childish person like you before. So you're the first one I've ever seen in my whole life. Thanks for all the lies that you had told me and all the fake promises that you had promised. You're disgusting! You disgraced all the guys in the whole wide world. You are not worth of my times and everything. I hate you, you this freaking two timer!

Alright, I'm feeling very tired now, shall go charge my battery by sleeping le. Working tomorrow still. Good night then.=/

What a day man!

2008-10-07T01:05:00.003+08:00

Hi there!

Here comes my new post yea? LOL Actually i got alot to post about. Aiya i will just type whatever i feel like typing. haha

Well as usual, went for work today at Far East Plaza. Sales isn't good this few days. Don't know why also. All shopping centres are really quiet now a days. Lucky today at least i sold one pair of shoes and a party dress. I had been very bored in the shop. My combined shop neighbour was so quiet today, as she is sick. Bored! So i chit-chat with myself, lolx, then called some of my friends for phone chatting for awhile.

Oh yea! I had found my model for my portfolio examination le. LOL Yea man! Haha Jazreel, don't smile and happy too early~ You are still one of my model. Yes you Jazreel Lim Li Ling! You are still in my name list. Muahahaha!!! Disappointed? Nah~ At least you will get to have free dinner lor from my treat lor. Haha

Ended work at 9.30pm. Met Irene and her friends for steamboat at Chong Qing Lao Huo Guo which located near by Bugis at 10pm. And Jazreel you suppose to be there, yet you throw aeroplane to me last minute again. (>.<)""" $#@!#$%^&^$~ Nah~ Just kidding lah, i know you have test tomorrow. Next week you better don't throw me aeroplane to me again, or i throw you bomb ar. LOL Overall it was fun man. And I'm really full now. haha

Yeah!!! Tomorrow is my off day! I shall have a very good rest. Heh! heh! I'm not going to anywhere tomorrow. Planning to be a piggy tomorrow. LOL Just joking la...I got many things to do one ok? Gonna try to do some quiet time, course i think i never do for around 10 months le. Alright i know its a very very long time. Then do some research and drawing to warm up for my school, then watch some drama or shows. Then if I'm not lazy, then i shall cook or bake something for my family to eat. haha

Can you believe it? I suddenly will want to read bible, which i really long time never touch le. Ok lah, "people" there de zui me only mah, He also done nothing wrong. Don't care those people can liao. Actually i also very confuse about religion stuff now. Course i both also believe. (=.=)""

This is the verse which actually caught me, though i don't really understand what is it about, but don't know why i felt that this verse like shooting me something sia. lolx Alright i will post about this again if i can find the meaning then. Haha

Romans 8:14-15
For as many are led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God. For you did not receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out.

Right, count down around 13 more days my school will be starting le. Haha So excited about it seh. Haha I'm so happy that i actually found the main goal which i'm aiming for. Lol. Gonna chiong le. Haha

OK! Its time for me to sleep le. Good Night to my blog readers=)

Tata!

Happy!

2008-10-05T23:22:00.005+08:00

Ahhh...I'm in love~ Nah! Just kidding. I'm just in love in music man. Haha Getting crazy over those harp, flute, piano music. Especially canon in-D man. Don't know why i love to listen those relaxing music now a days. Maybe I'm just happy today lah. Haha Everything is so beautiful after i had let go of those hatred and stuff. Though i still dislike some of those, but never mind la.

Yesterday was great, though today i'm working but today was awesome too! Hehez Just that i'm a bit tired. haha

I'm just so excited about my school, my fix actual career and my beautiful future. There are so many thing i want to do now sia. Thank God for refreshing me and I'm always so thankful for the great friendship i'm having. I believe this friendship gonna last till the end of my life. Though i do not have a lot a lot. Yet I'm feel so...how to say, erm should i say satisfy? Aiya whatever it is, the past i will just let it past! Its my new chapter now. Yea~ I promissed Him that no matter what i must be happy always.

I'm lovin it!

Anyway i will stop here for today.
Tata!

As long as i believe

2008-10-05T00:23:00.005+08:00

Hi, I'm just gonna do a quick post.
Met Jazreel at Chinatown to Lure get my cheque today. After that headed to that place for service. Be sure that went there not because of people but really for Him. I want to know how real is He. Indeed He answered my 3 prayers last night.

Pray that service gonna play old worship songs so that i can worship better. Indeed it happen. "i surrender all".
I wanna see how is my old friend doing. And the first person i saw is that person i wanted to meet.
Lastly its a secret=) But its really...gave me a shock!

Actually i did not really sleep last night. Course my head have to many things to think and consider about. Yes i have lots doubt. But oh yea, i don't have a feeling of regret after all this afternoon. Cos i gain something in my heart and feeling so refreshing.

I did not take the communions today because i have not make my decision yet and i dare not and not ready make a decision. I am afraid to make choices. But at least i got an answer from Him.

I felt really different while i was worshipping compared to 10 months ago. In the past i felt that it wasn't myself, but today, everything was just so natural. Thank you Jazreel=) Though the sermon give me no link today, but at least i felt something. After service said hi to somebody, then went to city plaza for dinner then do nails for like 1 hour plus then go bugis for Starbucks coffee and chit-chat girls talk. I'm very happy today. Course i have lesser burden now=D hehez I hope from now on i will have no more hatred le.

Yes you are right, I'm not the old Thea anymore...Cos I've gone through many many of the lessons and training=) Soon you will get to understand. I don't blame Him anymore, its not His fault anyway. Its just the people there. No matter what are the people gonna talk about me again, who cares, not gonna care about those people there le. Cos I'm not going there for them anyway=) I finally learned to let go and have a right mature mindset that i should have early on=)

Thank you God for taking away my heaviness, tiredness, hatred and stress away today. Thank you for answering my prayers. Indeed you are a good God. Thank you for listening to me. I don't know what to say but just really feel so thankful. I felt so blessed to have such a caring and so best friend Jazreel. Really cherish this friendship lots lots lots~

Anyway I'm kind of confuse now what is my religion now. Well i believe everything though i actually not suppose to have this kind of mindset. But if i continue like this i guess I'm gonna be happier. Course i know i will hurt no one like this=) As long as i believe in my true heart.

2008-10-04T08:36:00.003+08:00

Last night was a surprising night. Anyway thank you Jazreel. Thank you for spending whole night listening to me and comforting me. Really cannot get into sleep last night. After i went offline, i tried to do as i also does last time. Indeed something happened. I don't know whether is it Him. But i re flexed lots of lots of things out of sudden, this time i re flexed good thing. And a little bit of peace came into me. Maybe i is not peace, is quietness. But after really open it up i felt better, after crying it all out, felt even much more better.

I kept thinking and thinking last night. I'm not gonna hold that unnecessary stuff back which will make me sad make me angry. Though its hard to let go, but i will just try not to think about it.

If i really gonna step into that place again, well, heck care those people there. Anyway Jaz thanks so much for your advice. I think i know what i need to do next. Maybe its gonna work. I don't know...will see...

Still considering and thinking of something actually...hai shi xiang bu tong~

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Somthing is just missing~

2008-10-04T00:23:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i felt that i'm quite a lucky person.
My life road was really hard and narrow.

I thought i would be very very lonely and liveless when i left that place and people there. But my mindset is wrong. I became more happy after i let go of something...

From primary school till secondary school, from secondary school till ITE, and now... Things always happened very suddenly. Sweet, Sour and Bitter, these three different kind of tastes, i had tasted. Indeed it wasn't very nice. But from different chapter, i learned different kind of things. Honestly i had learned a lot. How to handle people and stuff is the most important thing. In outside world, seriously...its hard to find someone that you can really trust. I was too "tian zhen" and simple minded in the past. Why? Because i am a person who kept being used, being betrayed. The world is really scary... The most i cannot forget is even my very own cousin had betrayed me and used me. Many times i tried to forget about it, but i can't. Hatred is the most horrible things in my life. During secondary two and three was a small case. But this one...its just very hard. My heart had millions of scar which i cannot get rid of. I miss the olden me, who have no hatred, no stress, no scars...

I don't know what is gonna happen in 20 years down the road, but i just know that i cannot avoid and give up. I must face it. I kept reminding myself about it. I just have the fear of the pains and tiredness. I don't know how to describe how i feel. I just realise that, whatever I'm facing is earlier then anyone else. There's many times i wanted to give up and collapse. Anything happened i cannot show out. Many times i felt like crying but i can't. What to do? The only way is to continue my race. Everything came into my life very suddenly. In secondary facing different kind of challenges. In church there is even more. I know is a learning process. But why am i facing so different and a tough one? I really cherish what i'm having now. But there is just something missing in my heart. Till now, i still cannot find what is that. The feeling is complicated.

I admit i had changed, because i'm trying to protect myself for being hurt again. I really have no choice but have to be like this. I really cannot help it for being so quiet now. I also don't know why, after so many things happened, i became more and more tired and quiet. *sign*
Aiya~something just missing la. Don't know what's wrong with me also. The feeling is just so stupid, making me so blur... Sometimes i just so envy my brother, looks like he has no stress and problem at all. (=_=)"

Anyway i shall end here first.
Tata!

Thank You

2008-10-03T19:46:00.004+08:00

Back to Post le...

Very long never post le. LOL
Course had been busy with work and my school stuff.
Anyway i have a good news to share with you guys.
From 20th October 2008 i will be starting my school at Cosmoprof taking Professional Makeup Artistry Diploma. Its always my dream and also my wish to learn all this. I'm really very happy that i could get into this course. I wanna thanks some people here for helping me and supporting me. Which is my parent, my family and my only best sis Jazreel. If i do not have this people here, i could have gave up early on and feeling so hopeless.

I believe my future career and life are gonna be awesome...

And i really hope to see you succeed in your studies and future too! All the best to you=)

I will work hard, not gonna give up. No matter what, i'm gonna succeed! Thank you so much all of you! I shall not name you out, you know who you are=)

Photo is Up!

2008-09-26T01:39:00.004+08:00

SoMe Of ThE PictUreS On 13th SePteMbeR 2008 SeRinA And JimMy WeDdinG:

Big Family! Woosh~
~ My Xing Fu Xiao Jia Ting~
On the left side of the flower girl is my xiao mei, Dior=)
WOW!!!
*All the best to them*

me and serina gugu in the morning before the groom came=)
me with serina gugu and my grandparent
Sisters Rockz!
Jimmy gu zang, Serina gugu , Dad, Bro aka Leon and Myself(^.^)
Me at tea ceremony =D

Good News~

2008-09-26T01:07:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone!!!

Ohh~ Its already 1:10am now. haha

I'm gonna share with you what's happening "yesterday", which is on 25th September 2008. Yea~

Grandfather, Grandmother, Serina gugu, Jimmy gu zang and also Rose gugu came over to my house for lunch this afternoon. Mummy had the whole morning to prepare the food/dishes. Then we had so called "family chit-chatting session" about computers stuff, new Zealand life-styles and so on. All of them went off around 5pm plus. After that my brother Leon girlfriend, Zi Hui arrived and had dinner with him. Then chit-chat with her about school stuffs. Around 6.40pm in the evening, took bus 969 down to Tampiness Century Mall to meet my aunt, Sandy. Had Dinner with her at Ajisen Ra-men Restaurant. I bought a 3 colours combined eye shadow and a eye liner at The Face Shop, got a free mask from them as I'm the member of this beauty shop. Shop awhile, then we took bus 969 home.

After i reach home, i had a discussion session with my parent regarding my next year educations. I'd do some research about Fashion make-up and Hair design courses from those private school. Finally i found a private school, COSMOPROF. The trainers there, actually helps those Hong Kong actress/actor, Movies, Modelling etc. to make up. The website about all this information had actually amazes me. And I'm looking forward to know and learn more about it. I'm going down to this school personally this few days to check out more information. I hope i could successfully get into this course. Student there also have a opportunities to work on actual theatre productions during the course. OMG! This is my dream~ Yes, I'm gonna aim this man! The most concern now is actually $$$. Obviously its gonna cost LOADS!!!

Ti Gong Po Bi! or should i say God Bless Me? Aiya! Wish me good luck lah... LOL

Alright its late, shall off to sleep now!
tata!

~thea signing off~

Family Dinner - Dreams

2008-09-25T00:54:00.005+08:00

~A GrEat DiNneR~

Went out for dinner with my family and relatives today at tao payoh. We ordered lots of dishes. Most of the food are spicy de. Luckily I'm not scary of spicy food anymore. haha

Actually i have nothing much to post about...

Alright, since i'm blogging now. Then i will post some of my thinking and feeling out bah...

*~WhAt A UnForGetFuL MemOrieS~*

Last night i dreamt about my past. I know i dreamt a lot, but i only remember 2 that kept stucking in my mind the whole day. And make me got a weird feeling.

One is reflexing about FTMS time again. But this time i only saw me and april in a q.t, harmonising the song, if i'm not wrong is i simply live and also studying. And i saw myself doing reception duty with Hilda, having fun. This dream picture actually reminds me lots of stuff which will actually make me smile. Well its only all the happy memories. Ok, i try not to think about those unhappy stuff... Hmmm...this dream actually make me feel a bit hurt but sometimes will make me smile also. I also don't know why. But...haish~ I also don't know how to express my feeling out sia. Is kind of difficult. Arhh...but when i think about this place, it just make me so angry and pains. Stupid dream~ I hate it.

And the second dream picture is myself with him in the past. Haiz...I only want to blame myself and the freaking piano fault. Why did imake such a promiss for him? As if i'm so free till wanna make myself fall into this confuse and pain circle. In the first place i should had decide properly first. Actually i'm not regretting to make that decision, its just that...i hate him now lah. Argh!!! He is the most "clever" person i ever met. Anyway I'm not gonna continue this topic le. Make me feel so dumb.

Grrr...I know i'm quite a emotional person, but what to do. Its just me. Whatever it had happen, it just cannot wash away from my brain. I need to get myself more busy in order to make me forget the unhappy styffs. Gosh! What's happening to me this few days sia? Like got a bit siao siao one. Argh~

"(*>.<*)" Ok larh...will stop here first.

Sayonara!

Everything is New

2008-09-23T23:15:00.006+08:00

New Day--New Leaf

New Year--New Chapter

Went out this evening with my aunt to far east plaza for shopping. Ate dinner there. Woosh!!! i wanted to buy some dresses. But don't know why, when i prepared money, nothing to buy. But if i window shopping, when i was so damn broke, there is so so many nice stuff that tempt me so much. And i found nothing caught my eye today. haiz...

I WANT MORE SHOPPING MALL!!!

So sian~

Seriously i really miss school life, but i also quite enjoy working. Course after each month i can go shopping happily and have a great dinner outside. If want buy things won't need to worry so much... LOLx Never mind, next year i will want to study and also find a part-time job. Can enjoy both working life and schooling life. YAYs!!!

I will organise well for my road next year. I will not let myself down and loss again le. Yesssh!!! Hopefully no one can spoil my plan again. I'm not gonna let anything pull me down again! Next year will be shun shun li li in everything de. Gonna chiong... YAY! i love to fight war now a days. Don't know why. Maybe getting more and more bored bah...

But who knows what will happen the next second, next minute, next hour,next day, next week, next month and next year? Damn it! In my head, there is always angel and devil. So called "xin mo" in chinese. And the devil will always confuse's me. Stupid nia. I always have so many hestitation before i get my stuff done. ""(>.<)""

Alright, i shall look at the positive side. Anyway i looking forward for next challenge (i'm sure i'm gonna strive!), as well as next SHOPPING!!!

My new motto in my next chapter of my life:

WORK HARD & PLAY HARD

Just smile and be happy, nothing is impossible!

This is your road, its your choice.

Now i know, you are just lying to me in the past...

You are fooling everyone around...

And now i'm feeling so light, cos i see your true colours and the really in-mature YOU.

I leave you with no more regret!!!

Back for post!

2008-09-20T16:00:00.007+08:00

This is my gugu wedding accessories and some of the gifts...

Hello, back to post!

Last Saturday wedding was great! The most exciting part was in the morning, the groom crashing gate. Damn funny la. ha ha Was busy the whole day helping out and accompanying the bride for photo shooting, tea ceremony and to hotel etc. ha ha Anyway that wedding event was really awesome. ha ha will update those photo when the camera-man send the photos back to us=)

Went out for dinner with Jazreel to far east plaza for shopping yesterday. We share some of our secret. I didn't know we had a same thought seh. Oppps! ok i shall not post about it, since its a secret. lol Both of us bought a top which cost only $15. Its cheap OK, plus the material is good. lol Then we went back to our lao di fang to have our ice-chocolate with milk. I remember the last time we had this ice-chocolate was two years ago. I love it man. lol we shared our real live exciting stories while having our lovely chocolate. hehez. LOL. Thanks Jaz for the treat. (^.^)

Anyway i going out le. Will post again hopefully tonight=) Bye Bye!

Wedding's Preparations

2008-09-12T00:50:00.002+08:00

Hello, I'm Back!

This two days are really a busy day. I was helping to do preparation for my aunt, Serina aka Anna wedding. Which is on this coming Saturday. Though its kind of busy, but its a good experience.

Went to meet my aunt to try her wedding gowns at Tanjong Pagar at Venus Wedding's with my Grandparent, Gugu, Uncle and Aunt. Daddy fetched me. Over all she spent 3 hours plus for her fitting and alteration. While waiting for her alteration, went to Yakun Kaya Toast cafe for tea-time. Then walk back to Venus Wedding to collect her stuff. After that, uncle drive Anna, Gugu and I to People's Park for shopping then drive my grandparent home. She bought one set of crystal accessories for $150 at Temptation, usual price was $198. We bought quite a lot of things too. Then took trained down Toa Payoh to see gold at gold shop. Around 7.30pm we had family dinner. Daddy went back to fetch Leon and Dior to join us. After dinner went down to Anna house to help to design her bridal room. Reach home around 1am plus...

Today was a long day too. Went to buy stuff to prepare for bridal room decorations in the morning at 11am all the way to 2pm plus. Then accompany daddy to try his suit at fame bridal. Waited for the alteration till 3.30pm. While waiting for alteration to be done, daddy went for work. Went for facial appointment at 4.30pm. Then 7.30pm met Aunty Sandy at Orchard with Dior for shopping. Bought 2 pairs of high heel shoes at Heeren's. Went back home after dinner. And now I'm uber tired. ~Yawn~ My body battery gonna shut down soon le. Alright I will write till here for today. See ya!

Cries~

2008-09-09T02:02:00.005+08:00

A Random One

Suddenly thought of past few months. Feeling tired and cold.

When a person is sick, really sick.

Sick physically, and more sick on the inside.

Things are complicated, making me feeling so confuse.

Heaven is making a fool of me...

How can i cool myself down and see things clearly.

Where is my pure and quiet heart which i used to have?

Yes, pain can make a person stronger, but also can hurt a person at the same time.

This feeling is really very miserable.

Why are the world so complicated? Why people always fight for positions, for people attentions or even money?

Is that really worth to sacrifice a true friendship? Or even your own families or relatives.

Not only goes to church but also the world.

Seriously i really find the world and the churches are almost the same.

Its just that their goal is a little bit different.

Sometimes i just wonder, why must people lie to themselves and make their own live so miserable. At the same time being so silly that can even sacrifice their loves one. What's the point of doing that? What's their purpose? I don't believe that their are doing it for god. Even they are saying it in their mouth. But ask yourself seriously and honestly. The presence you mention is fake to me and you are lying it to yourself too. Ask your heart.

There is once i kept asking myself lots of lots of questions. And i can't even answer myself a single one. Why? Cos i cannot find the true answer. No matter regarding relationship, friendship or even a deeper one. Well, this world is really complicated.

Ever since i step into the working life, and learning to be a business lady (young adult), i realise quite a lot of things, and learned a lot to face problems, handle problems. Even a simple one, handling a customer. Seriously i can say, just one small case. It can really make you very very tired. This post that I'm posting, maybe only my closes one can understand. Cos I'm actually merging lots of cases in one post. Well, my heart suddenly just feeling very very weird and messy. I don't know why. Things just really bothered me so much that really makes me aching so much. Someone there help! Anyway I guess no one can help me, I will help myself. I just missed my pure white minded from past two years before I had joined the church in hogc.

They took something away from me, and gave me hatred. They gave me never ending worries and pains. They gave me and snatch everything away. And left the loneliness behind. I just cannot forget about the bad memories sometimes. I cannot let go of my lala-mickey. I stuck, I'm loss. My working life make me feeling so so tried. I just got the feeling that I'm gonna collapse soon. Gosh~ What is happening to me? Its just so helpless. Haish~ There is one angel and one devil inside me, making me so confuse. I don't want to have hatred, yet i had so badly. I don't want to love, yet i love deeply. What's wrong with me? What the hell am i worrying at? The jigsaw puzzle are missing a few pieces.

I don't really feel lonely, but somehow like missing something. I don't feel angry but yet feeling down. I'm not feeling moody, but sometimes just don't feel like talking. I do want someone to be with me yet i dislike like nagging. I'm so in the messy land now. Don't know what's wrong with me ever since something had gone. Well think I shall get some sleep.

I believes, think are gonna be better after day by day.

I believe in this phrase: 只要笑一笑没什么事情过不

I want to be a strong one and not a weak one.

No matter what I'm gonna overcome it. I'm not gonna be like that freaking person only know how to avoid. I'm gonna face the world.

Its just that, I really need sometimes. Overall, I'm facing it alone.

I'm not as xing fu as happy turtle in sonria pasta. But I really want to be like her.

A girl who is so strong... I just love her spirit.... I eny her that she had found a so perfect princ. Alright I know I'm dreaming like hell...IT"S JUST A DRAMA!!! But i know the spirit will come true in real life. Nothing is impossible. Ok...sound so church, but this is nothing to link with those christianaility. Its really the one I'm searching for and I'm gonna get it...

MY LIFE LONG MAIN GOAL:

To have the turtle spirit in sonria pasta
To go further in my career, and of course I'm gonna do well in my studies first.
To be a strong lady in the future, no matter how hard my road is, I'm going to face it.
To have my own business
To earn more and give my families a better life
To see my loves one happy everyday.

I'M GONNA MAKE IT HAPPEN, I DON'T CARE!!! ">.<"

Alright I'm really thinking far, but just can't help it. My brain kept thinking non-stop.

OK will stop here*

ta ta!

Killing Times

2008-09-08T20:43:00.003+08:00

KILLING TIMES

Wake up in the afternoon at 12.30pm. Then bath, then msn for awhile with friends, play computer, then chit-chat with my family, then get ready to go out=)

Met Daryl for lunch at Buddy Hoaggies Cafe today. And she was like talking about her story non-stop ever since we start meeting at Yishun OCBC bank. She very funny la. Very cartoon also. haha When we were almost finishing our food, saw Si Hui from hogc and a guy call Leon if i'm not wrong and also another girl, was a church drummer i think. Ok I don't mind talking to them cause they never step on to my tail anyway.

After lunch went over to Sun Plaza arcade. Half way playing para-para saw April. And i screamed. LOLs Then played one game of DDR with her. I almost dying. Cause I no strength today. Mei Chi Fan LOL After awhile April went off. And she choose the song of para make me failed to dance that song. Rawz!!! Cos the song is like damn hard la. >.<""" Then played one more game of para hard mode again. Total played 3 games, means $3 and $1 of DDR. Oh well, Jian Fei!!! Then I bought 4 packets of nail crystal. OMG!!! Its cheap, $1 per packet. So bought total of four packets. hehe After that went to have bubble tea at Rockery.

Alright how much did I spent today? Let's see... hmmmm...

Lunch (fish and chip set) - $13.90
Arcade -$4.00
Nail Crystals -$4.00
Bubble Tea -$2.50

So the total is $24.40. Ok la. Worth it to kill my bored-ness. lol

And now i'm uber tired. Just ate my medicine, as I'm like having flu. Damn it! Hate to be sick man. Make me so so tired and more blur. Alright i shall go cook my soup now for my dinner. hehe will be back soon! (*^.^*) bye bye!

shop shop shop !!!!

2008-09-07T20:55:00.004+08:00

SHOPPING AND EATING DAY!!!

Hello! I'm back for posting. Met April for shopping today. While waiting for April, met Wang Min, which is my client's. When she heard that i'm no longer working there, then she said this, " arh? wei shi me mei you zuo le? na wo ye bu yao dao na li mai yi fu le..." Then i replied, "wei shen me ne?" She replied, "ying wei mei you ni zai, wo zhi xiang xing ni de yan guang, he kwang jia qian you na me gui". Oh my god! i'm freaking happy man. My regular is not going back just because i'm not there already. And she said she trust my taste. Though i left this job le, but still i'm feeling so success as a IMAGE CONSULTANT! ok, at least i'm proud of myself ok? opps!* Diaoz~

Alright, April reach around 2.45pm. Met her at Yishun OCBC bank. And April you're late for 15 minutes. We suppose to meet at 2.30pm. LOLs OMG!!! April you look so chio today. So gur gur lor. hahaha Just have to change the top with a pretty necklace will be more perfect. muahaha~ *evil laugh* LOL

Took mrt to AMK hub. April and I were like super hungry so bought some snacks there. I bought fried BBQ chicken, and April brought one egg tart and a very very big chicken bao. haha And she look so cute with the big bao nia, so adorable. opps! LOL Well i was looking for dresses and i couldn't find any which caught my eye at that tiny AMK hub. So Pril and I decided to go down to Far East Plaza at Orchard. Finally found one there. Bought a dress cost $39.90. Ok lah, worth it man. It nice, and its made of chiffon silk. And the design is the best man. Then we continue shopping. And I guess April heart was like screaming away and spiritually holding white flag le. LOL Went in quite a lot of boutique, one of the boutique named 2cm, things there were quite nice, just that its a bit too expensive. Well nothing caught my eye there, but overall things there were pretty.

Went to Han's for dinner around 5 plus. I find the service kinda...bad. Thomson Road Han's was like better. Should go there next time instead... Actually April and I wanted to go Sakae Sushi for dinner, because she was like rushing off to meet her darling at 7.30pm, not enough time. So no choice lor. Zhi hao go for sushi another time lor. LOL plant colour light friends: means zhong se qing you. LOL Took train back to yishun after dinner.

Reach home around 8pm. Now blogging. Alright i shall go off now. Cause I'm getting lazy to type le. haha

I think April is dying now, cos she accompany me shop the whole day today. ok la..at least she bought something cheap and nice today. so i think not so bad la. haha

Thea sign off*

Random Post

2008-09-06T23:57:00.004+08:00

Finally i have a time to rest whole day at home...

Cannot go out today as i need to stay at home today. So cook some food for my family today.
Actually nothing much to post today...don't know what to type also. All i can say that is I'm free now at this time being. So i shall just listen to Johnny, have a good rest and relax first bah.

Anyway, went out to peoples park at Chinatown with my mum to collect her dress. Shun bian shop awhile. I didn't know there are many shops there to shops. Though it look abit like a market place but those cloths and accessories there were quite expensive. In the evening brought my mum, grandma, aunt and my sister out for dinner, dad drove us there. Went to have steamboat at chong qing lao huo guo at busig. Well its a buffet steamboat. After that went to bugis junction for shopping again. Bought a scarve from one of the shop there and also bought some stuff at sasa. Alright, I'm getting more and more lazy to post le. So i think will continue another time bah. See ya!

Tomorrow meeting April for shopping le. haha
So must be prepared and do rest well tonight bah. LOL

Long Time No Post! Sorry Friends!

2008-09-04T22:30:00.003+08:00

New Post here i come.

Sorry wor friends, long time never post le. Cause i had been very busy for my work. And finally now have some free time for blogging le. haha

Alright where shall i start?

Yesterday i met my gugu Serina aka Anna, which is my dad younger sister. She came to my house around 2 plus. Discuss about her coming wedding. Brought her to "Vietnam house" to check price for her manicure and pedicure. After that, she took taxi back home to tidy up than we will meet at 6.45pm again at Yishun mrt to Clark quay for dinner together with her friends also her sisters on her wedding day. In the mean time, i brought my younger sister to KFC for her dinner. Then bring her home.

After i reach home, very quickly i got tidy up too, and change then rush down to Yishun MRT to meet Anna. Seriously at first i did not feel like going because that freaky and bitchy Hermia Lim Shu Jun is coming along. Oh well, i did not want to make things hard for Anna, and for her sake i close one eye. Cos this dinner is also a meeting discussion for her wedding plan's.

Anyway, back to the topic, met Anna and that bitch in the train. Heading to Clark Quay. Met Anna friends at the control station. After that went to a Japanese restaurant. We've got the VIP room. LOL Ordered quite a lot of food and dishes. Total there is 8 of us. And OMG!!! the total bills is $195.95. Its like almost 200 bucks. After eating this dinner, I'm feeling a little bit guilty. Cos my gugu is paying for it. We went home around 11pm plus.

Serina GuGu, don't stress and worry so much about your wedding. Its gonna be successful and great! Just fang xin and be a very pretty and happy bride=)

Time Can Prove Everything . Need Not Explain So Much

Someone actually apologised to me on msn. Actually i felt kind of weird. And when she was explaining to me for what she've done to me in the past. Seriously, when i re flexed back to the past i was really really very angry. I did not want to listen to her explanation. It reminds me of how i wanted to explain to her and she did not want to listen to me. She don't even trust her very close sister and best friend. She choose to listen to the outsider. I'm really deeply hurt and angry. I don't know whether i want to forgive her or not. But i just know that even if i forgive her, things are not gonna be the same again. I hate to have hatred, but i have to. It really make me feel very terrible. Now I'm feeling so complicated. I don't know what to do. ARGH!!! RAWZ!!! i'm really lost! No one can understand how i felt. And i don't know if she is really cheng xin de apologise or its fake again. She really make me very hard to believe her again. Ever since i left HOGC, i told myself, hogc people CANNOT be trusted. And this is truly the fact. sign*

This ugly place, hogc, really gave me lots of trouble.

Oh well! i swear. No matter what happen. I'm not gonna be involve in this kind of stupid case again. Friends in there, if u have any problems, i can lend u my ear. But anything that's link to tat ugly place. I'm sorry i cannot help you. Cos my heart towards this place and people, had already dead.

OK i shall just leave them alone. i cannot be soft hearted again. oh man! i think i should just stop this topic. Its no ending.

lazy to post le. Shall update again soon=)

Random Post

2008-07-01T22:18:00.003+08:00

Hello Everyone!

Today is my off day.
Finally i can have a good rest le. lol I'm very happy. Cos everything for work had settled.
Johnny is back to normal. I have to apologise to him. Cos i had mistaken him le. Yesterday was sarah off day. So i had a great talk with him. lol

well, reccently i really don't understand what is norman thinking about. He kept calling me. He sounds like got something to tell me. But everytime he call me he said nothing. He is really weird. sign* what happen nia. Why he so qi guai one. =.=

Anyway i got nothing much to blog le. Very tired.
update soon.
bye bye!

Weirdo~

2008-06-29T00:04:00.003+08:00

hello i'm back again. diaoz

sign* what wrong with me?
suddenly i just feel like listening to those hillsongs and i'm listening it now. From the inside out. Faint!!! i not suppose to listen to these songs anymore. And this song only reminds me what had happen 3 years ago. No matter is happy memory or sad memory. But most of it, it remind me secondary life. My heart hurts. It just hurts lots. I don't know why. Maybe i kept reflecting those sadness bah. Its already the past. Why am i still thinking about it? RAWZ~

Wahh~really sian. i always think so much and reflex so much at night when i cant get into sleep de. makes me so sad. boooo! i cannot sad. i must HAPPY! but what makes me so happy. so boring everyday. i'm just like a working girl now. earn money, facial, shopping, working, chit-chat and stuff. alright, this is what normal human does. BUT! who knows i have a greater dream and plan? hehehe

Goosh! i'm dead. i'm getting crazy. my craziness is getting worse. anyone help? =.=
stupid nia. why am i shouting? no one there anyway. =.= =.=

Actually, i just realize that not all Christians are bad people. There are some innocent ones and some good one outside. In fact my boss is a christian. But anyway, as long as they are good people i don't mind being friends with them.

Everyday work work work...really tired, but always hard to get into sleep lately. Sign*
Sometimes i was just wondering, what makes me stay in church for so long. Is it people or really god? As the people there, seriously they treat me were just so so only. Not very good and not counted as not good also. It was just ok ok only. And they were actually kinda boring. They find it got live but sadly i found it no live at all. Always go the same place, eat same food, do same thing. =.=""" weird. I just realise that. they kept saying people no life when i was still in church, and they were actually the one who are no liver nia. Maybe follow weird people i will become weird people too. Is that called "influence"? i guess yes. lol i'm glad that i'm free and left le. anyway cut the topic.

Sian now is 12.19am le, and i still can't get into sleep, and i got more jin shen instead. =.=
Rah!!! cannot i tomorrow got work. i need to force myself to sleep. alright i shall stop here le.
goodnight guys=)

Stress in working life!

2008-06-28T22:45:00.004+08:00

Well, my blog is almost dead. lol

Sorry friends i had been very busy for working and stuff. haha

anyway recently i had been working as per normal.

Many things happen but i will not blog it out. hehe cos there is too many say.

Haiz~i also don't know what happen to my GM-Johnny. Ever since he came back from Hong Kong, he changed. And he had changed to be more worse. What happen nia? In fact Sarah and i did not do anything wrong what. What the hell, I am very head ache for work nia.

Last two nights, i was chatting with Sandra and Norman on msn. I am really curious, how both of them know each other de. lol oh well, they were really funny and uber weird. Don't know what's wrong with them.

Sales were not that bad. Erm...i should says that better den the first month. Cos when Johnny was not in Singapore for the first month 4 days holidays in Hong Kong were really really bad. But this month were not so bad. Improve quite a lot, and i felt that i am doing more and more. And i see the improvement man. Our relationship with our boss Elaine got better and as for johnny, sarah and i are getting more and more fear and stress towards him. Cos he is really really very sensitive or should i say "insecure". Sound familiar? sign* from that sickening church lor. Alright i shall not mention that stupid church. don't get me wrong. Only for that church. lol

Goosh!!! i'm stress! i'm worry! anybody can lend me a ear? or even a shoulder to cry? nahh~not that serious la. But really stress. School life is hard. But working life is even harder and more tiring. Damn it! i shouldn't be so unhappy, cos working in a boutique is always one of my dream. But its just the people there making me so stress and uneasy. And honestly, i had been feeling sick while working, but no one knew it. this is one of the sian-ness. =.=

anyway i got to go. will update soon asap=)

bye bye

Fear

2008-05-24T22:55:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i just get abit afraid that i cannot cope for work. As i had been kept thinking that, boss treat me good izzit because that i'm still very new? I really don't know. Irene is my company supervisor. But yet has a quite bad impression in Elaine and Johnny eye. Sign* I really very scare that if i had work in Lure for long, will they treat me in that way? As in speak with me in a very strick and fierce way like how they treat Irene? Or izzit Irene almost everyday late and did not work wisely that's why boss are not happy with her? Cos i can feel and know that Johnny and Elaine are a very understanding person. I hope Irene will not be late for work again. Cos I'm abit scare when i see Johnny got angry.

Worked overtime today till around 10pm. Though abit tired but its kinda shiok. haha Johnny was very funny today. I realise that he likes to tease me lots or even show me the funny act. Its really very funny sia. Don't know how to describe nia.

Day by day goes really fast. I don't know and also cannot imagine what will happen next or even next minute and next second. Its really very scary to hear about the earthquake news from shi chuan. Haiz...what to do? I just hope that i have the braveness to face all the problems as i really very mao tun this few days about some personal stuff. Sometimes i just very scare that what sarah always joke will make the things worse. I hope sarah would just stop it. Its abit too gan ga. Sign* i very tired le will continue again. tata!

living happily every moment every second

2008-05-23T23:59:00.003+08:00

hello everyone.
sorry wor very long never update my post le. haha
anyway i am really in love with my current job. cos i'm just working with no stress and really having a great friendship with my college and boss. haha just get to know some new friends from my working place neighbour from precious time and body shop. haha they are all funny people who love to job. But poor me, cos i'm the youngest there. So almost everone there love to tease me and bully me. lol haha

met mickey few days ago when i was on the way home. suddenly just have some of those happy memory back. Maybe i had really let go of those ungappy stuff. well, this is a good sign. i hope i will not get involve with any churches or connect group stuff in my whole life again bah. cos though i had let go but still got the fear there. lol haha

anyway i got to go le. i think will update a better post on my next off bah.
tata

My Company :)

2008-05-07T00:31:00.002+08:00

Arhh...really very busy this two day, as now a days had been working till very late. Lots of meetings, lots of new skills and stuff need to learn. But through out this few days of work, i had really learned alot from my boss, known as Johnny. He toughed lots of skills and he really took good cares of his workers. He is funny and a very good boss. Secondly, i also really very thankful to Johnny elder sister, Elaine. She is the director of the whole company. =) Thirdly, i also thanks my supervisor from Marina Square, Irene. She also toughed me skills too.

Anyway, yesterday was my first day of work in Lure's company. Everything was done quite smoothly. And people there were very nice to me too. And glad to say that, i'm the youngest there. LOLs Johnny gave me the most attention, course i realise that he really love to tease me. Kept wanting to intro guys to me. Don't know what's wrong with him sia. =_=""" But overall, when he is very serious, he would be really serious. And i realise that both his sister and himself are really talented. Really hope that one day i could really learn more from them. Elaine, she is very good in doing business and she love to dress up too. And she is really good in it. I want to learn more from her in dressing up. Oh yar! Both Johnny and Elaine are from Hong Kong! OMG! Its my dream to work with hong kong people too! Course i felt that they are really friendly. Even in business, the way they work are really very different from Singapore's. heh heh i'm so privilege

However, Irene she is a very cheerful girl and also very helpful. I love to work with her. We linked. lols We can joke and laugh in the shop for few hours non-stop. haha At the same time, she will teach me stuff and kept reminding me of customer service and skills. Thanks her lots.

This few days, i really very enjoy. This is the first job which i can work until so happy. Thanks mummy for helping me too. Love you mum!

Well, its getting late. I think i shall stop here first in the time being. Good Night!
Take Care friends!
tata!

Woohoo!!! My dream here i am!!!

2008-05-04T23:37:00.003+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO MUMMY!

This morning went to the jade shop to buy present for mummy. hahaI bought the one that my mum had choosed last time when i was shopping with my mum. Lucky i had reseved it le. Course its the only piece. lols Hope my mum will like it. haha

Today is my happy day! LOLs

Met Yu Ching and April at yishun bus interchange today while Sharon and I were waiting for bus to fame bridal. Surprisingly we are goin to the same place too. But Sharon and I were going to chong pang city first. haha

Firstly, we went to fame bridal shop to check the price for personal photo album prices. The package was $388, it was not too bad for me, as i trust the boss there. But Sharon find it quite expensive course she said she checked from IMM was $305. Actually i'm quite sure that quaility, conditions and service will not be as good bah. Hais...what to do. Let's all consider first bah. haha After that, i brought Sharon to tour around at Chong Pang lols Then took bus 859 to sun plaza. Met Yu Ching and April again in the arcade to join them for parapara and DDR. lols We had lots of fun. Sharon looks very shy there, asked her to play she don't want. *sign* lol

After finished 5 games of parapara and 1 round of DDR, sharon and i went down to carvana for dinner. Then we went to check the prices for OPI nail polished, it cost $18.90. OMG! Its double prices when i saw it from north point sia. T.T But north point shop close down le. Damn it! After we finished dinner, ran down to Bishan Junction 8 for shopping. Went to sasa as well to help my mum buy something. Sia lah! The girls who was serving me, make up damn nice sia, but the product she is using is not from sasa. So sian~ =_=

While we were shopping around, saw a bridal excusion. So went to take a look. A manager was serving us, was really nice. I had a nice chat with her. We talk about our ambitions, and soon she realise that, my dream actually want to work in the bridal shop too. And she wanted me to join their company, and also they will train me there while working, and also they may send me to study one course about wedding organization. Of course, i am very axcited about it. So i told that manager to give me sometimes to think about it and also discuss with my parent first. lols really very happy sia. This is my dream. And their company provide beauty also. OMG! Its my dream to work in the bridal shop with beauty service also. Ahhhh....

After that took mrt home le. Went home very quickly to discuss with daddy and mummy. My dad was 100% supporting me and my mum too. Yesh! This coming saturday, my dad is going down with me to talk about the contract. hehehe!

MY DREAM HERE I COME!!!

RELAXING!!!

2008-05-03T22:33:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone!!!

New post here i come!!!!
LOLS

Anyway i met the star from channel 8 Sharon Aw Qing Xian today for shopping!!! lols Nah~ just kidding. haha I went out with Sharon from my previous school from Bishan ITE today, after i finished my stuff in chinatown. LOLs. haha Miss her so much nia. Cos long time never meet her ever since i left the school le. Hmmm...anyway i had a very relax and enjoyable day today. Why??? Because i found a great job with high salary today. And starting work on next monday. Yeah!!! This will be quite a relax job for me and i really love this job. hehe

I met sharon at plaza singapura around 3pm plus. While waiting for her to arrive, went to zone x to play parapara and daytona. Met Matthew in the arcade. lol Better still got people pei me. haha Then went shopping awhile with him. haha he bought me one neckles damn nice sia. lol thank you matthew!!! Finally 3.45pm, Sharon reach le. lol then we start our shopping. Sharon bought 2 same design cloths. lol but the different is one is top and one is dress. It course $10 for the top and $15 for the dress. Very cheap lor. But not suit me la, ot else i will sure buy. Usual price is about 30 to 40 bucks sia. Of cos must buy la. lol haha I tried some dress in S&K and other shop. those dress is not too tight den is too expensive. =.=

After that went down to paragon and far east plaza. End up didn't buy anything but doing medicure and pedicure at far east plaza. Den went home. haha

i think i stop here first.
tata!

irritating christian!!!

2008-04-29T23:17:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night really cannot sleep. Now a days, i kept forcing myself to get into sleep. But just cannot help it. My mind too noisy le. lols.

This morning went for tui na with my mummy and grandma. Wah seh...very pain nia. But after that i feel so qing song. Indeed that tui na do helps. haha After that went to the pharmancy interview for a new job. Cause current job really stress.

Met Daryl around evening for dinner and also go walk walk. Nothing better to aim to buy today. Cause kind of bad mood. But of course i cannot show it out la. lol anyway i had a nice chat with daryl today and we went to nail palace for manicure. haha

Yesterday, One christian friend came and ask me whether do i want to join her for her church concert. ><""Though she is a good friend to make with, but i really find her very irritating for kept asking and telling me about church and christ stuff. RAWZ! I was a christian once, so stop!!! i know what you are trying to do. i know you are preaching John 3:16 to me. i can even momerise the verse le. Yes i know the meaning. so stop it!!! Stop being irritating!!! Stop telling me about your god!!! I'm not interested anymore!!! And don't even mention it again infront of me. Or else, i will fan lian.

I DON'T WANT! I DON'T WANT! I DONT WANT!
I'm afraid to church, i'm afraid of hurts, i'm afraid of those nonsense again.
Actually i don't hate christians people, its just that i had met lots of lots of bad and mean christian which make me have kong ju gan. And they are really like monster to me. They were pretty scary except one person who is so innocent, that he don't even know people is using him. well i will stop this topic. ><"""

YAWN!!! very tired le. i wanna go rest le, so i stop here le.
tata!

Worries

2008-04-28T02:41:00.005+08:00

Hmmm...actually nothing special to post about today.
But today i'm not in a very good mood. Not sure why also. But i kept thinking about the qian i got two days ago, as i'm kinda confuse. Though i got a shang shang qian, but my heart still cannot quiet down. Anyway i did not get a good qian for myself except ying yuan qian" and medium qian for family><" Of course, lots of things are bothering me. I have millions of worries in my heart. Most importantly is my family. How i wish my brother could really help if both can really sit down and discuss how to settle it. But i always have no chance to have a good talk with him. He is always not at home rather even have a little time for home. Reccently i just got a news from mum that he has a girlfriend. Yes, i'm happy that he had found his true love and happiness. But somehow i am really very worry. I'm worry that once he have a girlfriend and less time for family. Now a days, when he came out from camp, he will come back home and change den go out till very late. Worse, he will not come home untill the next morning. Sounds like my dad. I'm very sad to see my mum sad. As i seldom see my dad and brother at home. My current wish in my heart now is to have a family dinner, to see my mum smile with her peaceful heart with no stress. I really miss those days that my whole family went out for dinner and shopping around, my dad and mum, my brother and not forgetting my younger sister. When can i have that again??? How can i still thinking about it? Every night, when i am thinking about all this things, it makes me tears and feeling so sad.

Just now, i had seen my brother friendster. Just a friendster, it already make me so envy him. He has a bunch of great friends. Hanging out with no stress no worries. I'm so regret for making a wrong decision and went to the wrong path three years ago during my secondary time. It had ruined my friends and i friendship. Just to blame myself for being so stupid so dumb. I know i had hurt my family for converting religon three years ago.

You ask me why do i always hide myself at home? Let me tell you why. And i'm sure you know why. I'm afraid to see the feeling of hurts and pain again. I am afraid to see the world. I am always so soft hearted, so easily for trusting others. I'm very scare to see the same thing happen again in church. Yes, i do have insecurity and i'm very sure everyone do have. Maybe you are right, i am thinking too much. But what can i do? I'm just so useless? My positive thinking had ruined. And negative thinking kept coming in. And i'm really confuse. I am loss... This year, everything i do, nothing is going on smoothly. I feel depress, i feel confuse, i feel lonely and i feel so blank... Why am i always the one helping people, and end up who will help me? Why things are just so unfair to me? I hate my life! i am very tired.

I do have my happy moment, just that the timing are very short...
Anyway i'm gonna stop here.
tata!

Yesterday and yesterday post!!!

2008-04-27T00:12:00.005+08:00

yoyoyo!!!

new post here i come!!! LOL

Met Sim Kia yesterday to go shopping, at the same went to bugis si ma lu guan yin temple to pray and lot qian. Hmmm...my qian was not bad. haha After that went to Alice 88th to see new clothing. Saw two sets of qi lolita goth which i really love it. I confirm will want to buy one more elegant lolita. I gonna aim that set of loli sia. Muahahaha... saw one set of cute loli for children de, told my mum about it and she wanna buy for my sister le. Yeah!!! so happy for my sister. She dream to have one set very long le. Cause actually its cost not cheap for one set of lolita. ><'' Hope my parent would pay for me too LOL Sim Kia went off around 7 plus.

After sim kia went off, i went down to orchard meet Jazreel for dinner and also SHOPPING! While waiting for her to reach, i was shopping for some facial cream and stuff at wisma sasa. Damn happy, i finally found the one i was looking for so long which is B.B products from Korea. However i bought it with no regret. Cause this helps my skin lots. So these are the thing i bought yesterday from sasa: one B.B moisturising cream, one clinic facial gel and one toner and also one pack of aloe make-up removal wipes. After paying, just nice Jazreel reach le, met her at top-shop. Then we went to starbucks to have drink and mean while she was doing her journal,as everywhere she went before meeting me, she couldn't find the place where got wireless Internet connection. =.=""" And most importantly i got free java chip from Jazz. *one big thank you hug to her* *shy shy* LOL After she had done everything, we start shopping again. Went to wisma mango shop and all the shops. lol After wisma, went to cinelesure to shop for our friends birthday present. Den again, we went to Hong Kong cafe to have our "dinner" at 10 to 11 plus. Around 12plus Jazreel mother came to fetch us. She fetch me to the bus stop opposite far east plaza. But when i alight there, i realize that i had actually missed my last bus *sad* , so no choice got to call my dad to fetch me. Lucky he's free other wise i got to waste my money to take cab again as the taxi fare is having the midnight charge which cost super uber ex seh. lol

Alright, back to my today post. Very paiseh, i am suppose to meet Jazreel go out this afternoon, but i over slept. I was really tired and i cannot even force myself to wake up nia. So sorry leh! LOL Went for meeting before going to Daryl birthday bbq celebration. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DARYL!!! SWEET 16!!! Once i reach to the park, i help out to start the fire. Started two bbq pick there. Uber hot sia. But its ok la, better than nothing to do. LOL

While preparing to start the fire, Daryl father came and talk to me. I realise that her dad is not as bad as she told me as he was kinda understanding. Just that, i think they need to have a good talk by gaining each other trust. Hmmm...through out this whole bbq celebration, i know quite alot of new friends from chung cheng which is my old school. lol i find them really friendly. Its a waste that i never know them earlier when i was still studying in secondary school. Well, its never too late to know new people. I had a great chat and fun with them. Know a new friend name Lizi. She is a nice person. Glad to know her. Hmmm...most of them left quite early. So left edwin, winnie, siti, myself and daryl. We had a nice chating session with them. Soon daryl boyfriend name k.k came to join us for awhile. We were chating at the bridge. Damn shiok sia. We were encouraging each other for studying, planning our life and helping each other to settle some of their family relationship problem. And the chating or sharing session was awesome. haha came home by cab around 11.45pm. And now i'm posting. lol haha

I think i will stop here today.

Just to encourage you once again, nothing is impossible in this world, just don't give up no matter in studies, career, work, romances, friends and not forgetting family relationship. Anything not happy just speak and talk it out, most importantly Please don't give up of your studies and your goal! If you give up, no one can really help you. Studies is really very important so just work hard DON'T GIVE UP!. No matter if you're in normal technical stream or express stream,retain or not retain, its still a education,i'm sure you will really succeed in future if you are willing to work hard and not to give up:) All the best to you!

My Hearts Cry

2008-04-23T17:04:00.005+08:00

Recently just feel so lazy to blog. Hmmm...well recently i was just thinking about so many things. I am very worry, really have no peace in my heart. I don't know why. I'm just feeling so sad and worry. Thinking of those past in church. I felt that i am so dumb to trust wrong people in church, even my cousin. In the first place i should not bring her to church, and in the very first place i should not had gone to church. I regret so much. My heart just hurt and bleed when i thought of those issue about church and CG. I couldn't sleep last night. Till my dad came back from work, he spoke to me about what is my plan for next three months. And i told him since i am not studying this year, so might as well work or take some course to learn something. So i am planning to go learn some other languages or anything else. I don't know how we link to talk about what is happening in church. But somehow i told my dad about my sadness. I thought he would scold me for not listening to them as in including my mum. Indeed my dad is very understanding. He did not scold me or blame me. But he teach me. He knew that i was very tired and stress about it, he told me to take a break. After a talk i felt better. As i thought my parent were not very happy with me cause i wanted to stop school for a while.

Though i lose lots in church, but i gain experience. Soon i realise that i cannot look back anymore, I've got to look forward and stand up again. I cannot carry on going like this. But i am really very tired. This year January, when my school was starting, i still have no mood to study. My heart is just not there and find no interest in anything. My mind was so blind. Things may going on very smoothly in school but i just couldn't go on. I don't know why. No matter what, my heart and mind were just so blank. My heart just have no peace. And i couldn't help it to trust no one. Not that i don't like my new friends. Its just that i had gone through so many things in church. One after another kept betraying me even my very own cousin. I just cannot help it. I'm very afraid to get hurt again. I'm very scare of the pain. No one will understand until they experience it. When the very first time when i thought of giving up in everything, i bleed. Everything just gone so blank.

I had stayed there for almost three years and now i had left for almost three months. The feeling is so weird. I don't why. Think back i should not treat people so good and trust people in all my heart. I was so stupid to help my cousin over and over again. I never knew human can be so irritating, so confusing and so complicated. Why can't they just treat things normal. Why must have jealousy,positions? Now i realise that church and the world are the same. Things are not that simple as i thought three years ago. Same goes back to 4 years back in cchy. Haiz... sometimes i just want to give up, no matter is in studies,romance's, friendship or even work. I am very stress over it. I really want to give up. But like my dad said this is the time of process. What to do? I can't do anything but just let nature take it course. *sign*

To Christians:
PS-I AM NOT A CHRISTIAN ANYMORE!!!
PLEASE DON'T EVER HAVE A THOUGHT OF BRINGING ME BACK TO ANY CHURCHES ESPECIALLY HEART OF GOD CHURCH!!!
I mean we can still be friends but PLEASE don't ask me to join church or CG again. I'm very tired of all the nonsense. Don't misunderstood me. I'm not against christians or even Christ. I'm just very tired.

Last few day, went back for SCGS carnival. Before going back, when i was on the way there i was very scare to meet my teachers and friends. But when i reach there met Jazreel and her friends. They were very friendly and i couldn't help to have the feeling that i was feeling so welcome by the teachers and friends. I see lots of familiar faces. I really miss sc life, when i was still studying in SCGS. Though my studies and everything was really weak especially in mathematics. I still remember i was really bad in maths, even a simple calculations i couldn't even do well, but Mrs Tay and Mrs Lim Li Lian never give up on me. They kept helping me to do better and teach me. All the teachers who were teaching were so nice to me. Untill today, Mrs Tang my previous vice principal and not forgetting my chinese teacher Lin Lao Shi are still so concerns about my studies and my future career. SC teachers are just so different, compare to other schools teacher. SCGS is just like second home to me. I am really thankful towards the long friendship with Jazreel and i. Really thank god for this friendship.

I am very glad to have such a caring friends. Thank god that after one big round, Yu Ching, April and i are not enemies anymore=) I don't know how much they treat me as or even how much they trust me but i am very happy that everything are settled. At least we are no more enemy but friends.

My life may be very simple, very plain now. But at least i have peace, i have true friends now.

Last but not least i am also very thankful that i have a very great and understanding family and friends.

Anyway i got stop here le. Thanks for coming to my blog=)
tata!

SHOPPING AND CRAZY WOMEN

2008-04-21T21:54:00.006+08:00

Met Daryl today. She is late...waited for her for 2 hours nia. I almost went out for nothing course her mum actually don't let her out, but finally she can come out le. Went sun plaza play arcade today. Daryl play DDR very cute sia. haha Both of us played 2 games of DDR and 1 game of para para. Damn funny today sia.lol After that we went to beauty language to visit my old friends. haha they say i MIA lol. Actually we are meeting Jazreel at woodland causeway de but she said she wanna study so end up never meet. lol

While shopping i saw old mickey. Arhhh....why let me see him again? Uber sian la. I also don't know why feeling abit weird after seeing him. Anyway i am suppose to forget about him. think back to 4 years back, we are kinda childish nia. lol

We went dinner at Swanson's (oops! i think wrong spelling) haha
First time had a dinner with such a good show. One crazy china women down there hitting people. I think they are the manager of the restaurant. I think the women is crazy with that stupid actions. The manager says that this women eat le never pay then wanna go off. No money then don't order so expensive food la. So noisy. Daryl damn angry with that women. She shouted at the managers says that her gang outside waiting for her, and we looked out, no one outside only passerby. LMAO! Her gang is those air and dust nia. Soon the police came. She got hand locked by the polices. 6 polices came to arrest her and she still dare to hit the polices. Wha~she very daring sia. haha i think this women came out from mental hospital. Funny lor. lol

Bought one neckles from IORA shop. Damn nice seh. haha went off around 9.30pm. Took train to yishun then take bus home. Now blogging~ Haiz nothing much to post le will stop here bah...

ScGs Carnival

2008-04-20T20:39:00.001+08:00

hey! this will be my first post...

Finally i finish doing my blogskins and stuff le. Long time never do blogger le, i abit blur.
Spent 2 hours 20minutes to do this blog sia. Damn tired now. lol

Anyway went back to my primary school, known as Singapore Chinese Girls School for the school carnival yesterday. I brought my sister, Dior along. She was damn happy. Course at last my mum allow her to come with me. We had 7 coupon to spent, means we have 70 dollars to spent.

Daddy fetched us there. met Jazreel,Yen Xi and sandra at the canteen when we reached there. After that we walk around. There are 100 over stores for us to shop. OMG! the carnival stores really looks like pasemalam sia. Damn messy! But overall it was fun. Yeah!

Met Miss kwok at the lobby. Same thing she said to me, "thea we must go out for tea one day..." =.= she said that for 4 years le, but still didn't get a chance to meet out. LOL but its alright, cos its really scary to go out with a discipline mistress. haha but of course she is different la, much more better den my secondary one. haha

Met Lin Lao Shi at the courtyard. She is still lao yang zi. Still as cheerful as last time. Just that i realise that she had gone abit plump. haha maybe most of the married women will have these day bah. haha she teased me with my sister also. Argh...lol

I saw Mrs Tay from far, but didn't get a chance to work over there to talk to her. Course its really sqizzy and messy. LOL I saw miss loo and mdm lim po lai at a game store too! they damn funny la. haha

Wow!!! i felt like i had gone home yesterday. Really very long never go back le. haha

Jazreel chinese teacher brought my sister to primary school hall to secondary school hall for the bouncing slide thingy to play. Indeed my sister was having lots of fun. She met her classmate. Her friend said that i looks like a witch just because i wore all in black. T.T Xiao hai jiu shi xiao hai. LOL After that went to the courtyard to walk walk...

When we are about to go find jazreel at the another store, my sister fell. Her knee and hand got hurt badly and she bleed. I was really scare, i don't know what to do. Wanted to carry her to the staff room, but no strength. Lucky got jazreel friend de boyfriend (if i'm not wrong) to carry her up. we took lift to go primary school staff room, but no one in. So we went to secondary school staff room. Mrs Mild helped my sis to clean the wound...all the teachers were very nice to her and even gave her a small gift to support her as she cried and was in pain badly.

Jazreel, Yen Xi and Jannet sent us to school gate to get a cab for us after we left the staff room. Really thanks them so much for helping us:) When we really Yishun, went to pizza hut near by our house to had a lunch with dior. Once she got nice food, she will forget the pain le. lol

After finished the luch went back home to get some rest. Around 7 plus, went down to with my mum and her friends to go for aunty karen house for her baby boy 1 year old birthday party. The baby boy damn cute sia. haha the buffet was nice too. haha met Sopia there also. She is now studying in Inova JC. Long time never see her le. Almosr cannot recognise her. lol Went home around 10pm.

Will stop here first...
continue later.=)